Long Time No See

 Hey Hey!!

I know that it's been A VERY REALLY REALLY REALLY VERY VERY VERY REALLY REALLY REALLY LONG TIME.... But HIYA!! 

Life was Life-ing and shit got crazy and things also went left field. But I kinda did start over.... I'm trying to get it together yawl I am. But I be needing like 12 naps every 4hrs and it's just fucking with my schedule. In the meantime, we did tons of moving.... come see me at lesanslerue.com and this blog has grown up into lesanslerue.blog! So by all means come see us. I'm across the internet as usual lol. 

See you soon! 

25DOB | Day 24

"An Ugly Swan"



I was going to write for this particular Day of Bunny about how I was told by everyone—and by everyone I mean people outside of family, friends of family and some close personal friends, etc.—that I was do hideously ugly. However I saw something today (6/5/12) and it made me happy for two reasons. One: because it was a question everyone always asks of themselves and I got an answer from some I least suspected which made me sorta happy. Two: I'm happy the Days Of Bunny ended up getting pushed back because now I can write something so much better.



So as far as I could remember I always thought of myself as being cute, like everyday kind of cute. If I would dress up or wear something outside of everyday clothes, that's when I felt pretty. But as I got older, not just the little boys but the girls too, would always tell me how ugly I was and I was never pretty, no matter what kind of party dress (yes we wore party dresses in the 90s lol) I had on—I would always be ugly. And I won't lie, that hurt. Whether it was done out of jealousy or just straight up meanness, it didn't matter it still hurt. No one wants to be told that, let alone hear that everyday.


Well somewhere along the way I started to believe them. And considered myself unpretty. I didn't know what else to do. And as far as my bringing up goes, my parents were the type who would say how pretty I looked and made over me (in a non-spoiling type of way lol). But it's one thing to have your parents praise how pretty you are, compared to hearing what other people have to say.


I guess that's why I stopped wearing pretty clothes and felt more comfortable with my blue jeans and shirt or top or whatever for the day. Threw my long hair into a ponytail always and kept to myself. I was a loner to begin with and I already knew it. But it's hard to open up to people in general when you have insecurities and flaws you don't want them to find out about. Or even judge you about them. And because of all those things, maybe because of my low self-esteem and low confidence played a major role in me having a boyfriend in my early school days. Then again maybe I wasn't what the boys wanted in the first place. Hell I enjoyed going to the library and reading books and participating in after school activities. The other girls were more interested in colored hair weaves, new designer clothes, sex, money and which guy held the most power in the school. Sluttiness was easily confused in my school as a good thing.


All of my current problems made me think back to my senior and prom time. Me and a friend was suppose to go to prom together as friends. Nothing more, nothing less. I wasn't interested in him that way, and how he felt wasn't important. He was like my best friend—until he backstabbed me. In the few months before prom he was half ass participating. So I got to the point where I didn't want to go. I didn't like the other kids in my class. Most of them had Billie me and made fun of me and rarely spoke me. Why spend what's suppose to be a "fun and great" evening with people who really didn't want me there to begin with?? So shortly before prom, the friend said he didn't want to go with me anymore. Never have a reason why, not like he had to and I didn't care. I felt I was free and I could stay at home. Unfortunately that's not how it worked out. So when prom finally came. Not only did he show up but he took another girl to prom. I wasn't jealousy or seriously mad. I was disgusted. And my then best friend had the nerve to tell me what some of the people were saying about me. Even though I did get an update that following Monday.

LéSans didn't have a prom date because she's so hideously ugly

Why would anyone want to take out LéSans she's so ugly and lame

Maybe the person she was suppose to go with realized how ugly she was and back out—HAHAHAHAHAHAAA

I had to listen to that until graduation. Not to mention I got ridiculed for not picking the Prom King & Queen. And dammit I felt I shouldn't have to vote if there aren't any good candidates. Like wtf. Anyway, regardless of how the people cheered me on at the prom line up. I still had to hear the bullcrap. So that 5 minutes worth of fame wasn't good enough to me or for me.

My friend had the nerve to talk to me at the prom for a few minutes and take a picture. It was comical how he just "coincidently" showed up at prom in my colors. Hmm. And in the midst of his conversation of which I can't recall, he was more concerned about getting a ride to somewhere. But since I was forced to stay the whole time, I wasn't leaving anytime soon. Even though our friendship fell to pieces because of that, I didn't get a I'm sorry or I didn't mean to. Last time I talked to him was probably 5-6 years ago and he was asking me if I had seen anyone we had graduated with. No, and I don't care to. I had seen a few of them from time to time but they ignored like they usually did. So who honestly gives a fuck??



But I guess you could say that made me bitter and when my false sense of security finally fell apart beyond fixation. I was confused an did things backwardly. Hooking up with whoever, hanging out with whoever—did things I never though I would do. I expected and thought I would get a boyfriend in high school and share all my first with that person. I wasn't banking on it was going to be forever, because my sick twisted mind told me that I would meet Mr. Right in college and we would get married.

Deep down, I still wish I had taken a different approach or done something differently. I wanted to have a first love, first boyfriend, the first date, kiss, even the first time having sex with someone I could hold as a memorable worth while person. Who accepted me and liked or loved me. But I missed out.

I don't remember who was my first kiss. Couldn't recall I my life depended on it. Can barely remember who I lost my virginity too. And as for my first "real" love—well he turned out to be married with kids. First real love with a girl, well the novelty that was I wore off quicker than nail polish in acetone. In all those experiences, no boyfriend and no date. I would get asked out but the guy never followed through. He would lie and say he was busy and never rescheduled. Or I was left hanging. Or even some wanted me to meet them in East Ublip somewhere because his gas was more important. Even asking my mom what I'm doing wrong, she wanted to base it on the company I kept over the years. Well to a point I understand that. But what's the excuse now?? I don't have those friends anymore, and I've done everything right so the experts say. She deduced I needed a self help relationship book. When I told her the top 3 (Think Like A Man, He's Not That Into You, & The Truth About Men) she said those weren't good enough and to find something else. But none of those applied to me or my situation. Most of the guys who did ask me out did even have a car so how can I be "chirp chirp girl" in the first place?? Or just tell him your dating other people he'll come around and want to claim what's his—yea do you see guys fighting over pizza & hot wings?? I have yet to see that, but if there's a way to get more trust me he's gonna find another way. Or well if you want the nice guy, you shouldn't have friendzoned him. Only guys in my friendzone or close to it are the guys I'm not interested in. Those guys who feel a quick fuck is like a "getting to know you better" event. The ones who have the audacity to tell me I'm worthless and will always be a sex object. The ones who tell me I'm hideously ugly. Those are the guys in my friendzone.


Within all of the mess, I'm still trying to find myself and figure out what to do. I know my life's not exactly great nor is it perfect. And some of my so-called friends are in the same boat, but yet they have boyfriends, husbands and/or kids (hell some got all 3). So then of course it made me wonder is it because I'm not pretty enough?? Weight aside, because there are some big sisters out there who got men and makes you wonder what the hell, but it could be because she has money, maybe???


So I find myself doubting myself. To never hear, you're pretty or worth it or have the guys or whoever flock to you like they lie about in the movies and novels....it'll eventually make you doubt yourself. Then again I have to think the only good, great guy I knew was my dad. All the others either hurt me, abused or misused me, hurt my feelings, tell me how I don't match up to HER, or completely ignore me like I don't exist. I understand you should let one or handful of guys ruin it. But it hard to accept that and practice that when a bunch of guys have done so. I don't want to be told I'm cute just so he can get a sexual satisfaction. I don't want to hear how pretty I am and end up a baby mama with and for someone who didn't care in the first place. However I'm not saying I want to be married. I just want someone who will accept me for me and be ok with that. Don't try to make me something I'm not or mold me into something you feel you can "possibly" live with.


I'll admit, I'm still confused about Love, Life and Relationships. I'll even admit and say I dislike people in relationships. They brag too much and make a mountain out of a mole hill. The funny thing is they always say not to worry, but you do and you will. Friends are more like close enemies and will lie to your face without thinking about the consequence or outcome. Family isn't always enough and we need to be close to other people have an intimate (non sexual) relationship with other people. Men are so picky nowadays about what they want and what they expect, sometimes when the best thing that could ever happen to them is standing right in front of them, they run off to obtain the easiest thing.

Like they say make men work to get you as their mate, girlfriend, or wife. Why should he have to work hard for something when there's a skank waiting to give it up to him and for him all for free of charge, no work required??

But, finding that picture and wondering how sucha good question it is—something else happened and I didn't even consider it. A guy I grew up with, who's basically like family told me the answer was yes. Believe it or not it made me happy. Then I thought, well everyone's entitled to their own opinion of someone–anyone! And everyone has their own preferences of what they like in any given person.


I might be hideously ugly, unpretty and not cute or gorgeous enough for some people. But that doesn't mean that everyone feels the same way. I'm nothing special, I have flaws and insecurities like everyone else and made a lot of mistakes and still got to grow up a little bit. But none of that makes me a horrible person or lacking in any way or form. I'm human, just like everybody else. I always try my best and do what I can. I turned out to be an insecure, untrusting and strange 25 year old with a killer mean streak. I didn't grow up this way, people help made me this way.



So I think for now, I'm not going to worry about love at all. And I'll just have to hope that one day my dream of having at least one baby will possibly come true. No matter how silly it sounds, it's what will make me happy. However, I'm going to continue to work on me and continue to grow.



For now I'm still an ugly duckling, but I have high hopes of becoming the beautiful swan I was meant to be.

Resume pt 2

So I was told by a few douchewaffles that my last resume was not only too damn colorful with too many bunnies and my hideous picture. But it was so unprofessional all the little children in the world lost their virginity and innocence in one fell swoop.


Yea so I redid it and deleted all that "crap" and then just kept the stuff that was most important. Yet in still I still didn't get any job offers or interviews, so hell if I know.


Anyway here you go kids, if you want to see the last one click here. 

This is strictly meant for future employers looking to hiring individuals of my caliber.


And this is also for those of you that might need some help putting a "professional" resumé together if it's your first time, or it's been a LONG time since you last made one. So in that regards I hope it helps you out ^_^.

Link to My Resumé

25DOB | Day 17

"Hyperthyroidism & Graves Disease"

So for the sake of having no more technical problems the rest of the 25DOB posts will be plain text.

This a good topic, and at first I thought I could just freely talk about it and be ok with. But I've realized the more time I had to think about it. The more uncomfortable and "not yet ready" for this as I thought I could've been or maybe should've been.


Only my family knows this, not even my closest friends know this about me. But I think it's time to share it. I have an incurable disease. I don't know where it came from, some people say it's hereditary and others say it just magically appears. Either way, I don't know and I've got it.

Hyperthyroidism is a condition in which the thyroid gland makes too much thyroid hormone, it's often referred to as an "overactive thyroid." [Source & More Info]


I also have Graves Disease and a Goiter. I went through just about all of the symptoms listed on the website from the link above. Difficulty concentrating, fatigue, had both weight loss and gain, restlessness, hair loss, hand and leg tremors, weak, high blood pressure, itching episodes, the rapid pounding pulse and heartbeat, sleeping difficulty, even the irregular and lack of menstrual periods [Read: PMS]. I even get worried because I don't want the buggy Simpsons eyes and sometimes when they begin to hurt, thats the first thing that comes to mind. Plus my eyesight has gotten worse, but also that was due to me not wanting to wear my glasses in Junior & Senior High School.

I was diagnosed with Hyperthyroidism and Graves Disease, I would say in October 2007. I got sick at college and had to go see the doctor, plus in May I had a bad trip and twisted both my ankles and scraped up my feet pretty bad to the point I needed them bandaged and had to use crutches or a cane. The doctor said it would be best that I got to the hospital because she thought I had a heart murmur and I didn't. But to hear that I just knew I was dying at some point. So they called my parents that day and my dad had my mom over at one of her many doctors appointments. Not only was me being sickly all the time, sleepy and fatigued, and I kept losing weight to the point my clothes looked way too big on me. My parents came and got me and took me to the doctor I rarely saw in high school. They took blood and said that it seems the cause to my irregular periods was due to my having Polycystic Ovaries, still not sure if I have Polycystic Ovaries or PCOS definitely. The doctors chose to keep that informant tidbit from me. Then I had to have more test and more hospital visits, a new doctor. Then having to have procedures done like a sonogram to see what was really wrong with my irregular periods. As well as I had to undergo radiation treatment for my thyroid. All in all being told I have incurable disease, a huge growth in my neck that I'm very much self-conscious of, my spuratic weight loss and gain to even hearing that there's a possibility that I may never have kids of my own no matter what, all before my 21st birthday was more than depressing. It hurt, and I guess you could say I lost all hope. But who wouldn't. At the time all I could think of, I have to take medication no drinks with friends, no drink for the the 21st birthday. What do I do if I meet a guy I really and truly want to spend forever with and we can't have any children of our own? Then at the same time I was having a lot of stress from school and being sick for weeks on in, losing my hair....it was a true battle.


Then in November, I was on my way to class and I tripped and fell. I got beat up pretty bad from my 20,000 TON book bag and the concrete. They jumped me lol. I ended up having a head contusion, I scrapped my head so bad that it was all flesh and blood was running down my face, scrapped up my hands and arms pretty bad to the point they were bloody. In the midst of it all, I was really thankful, because I had a glass bottle of drink in my hand. When I fell or when anybody falls, your reaction is to break the fall as much as you can and stick your hands and arms out and save yourself. Well I did that and I'm thankful the bottle didn't break, because it could've been a lot worse. I had to wear a head band or bangs over my forehead until it healed. Another something to be self-conscious about.


I will admit through it all, I wasn't happy about taking my medication and I refuse to do so in the beginning. But after months of conviencing myself to the point this was somewhat important. I began to take my medicine. Not only did I feel a little bit better, but I wasn't as grumpy or cranky, I got a better sleep and could partially focus. I thought I was doing good. And I was kind of contented with the fact of not having kids of my own and finding someone who would be ok with that, and who would be ok with me—but be ok with a Broken Person.


Unfortunately, when my father died, the medicine stop working, my goiter stayed at it's current size, lost my insurance and my weight yo-yoed for awhile. It's sad that it turned out that way, but then again, I felt it and knew it that the medicine had stopped helping. Even taking it, I still felt uneasy, grumpy, sleepy and fatigue which then developed into insomnia and sleep apnea, my hand tremors came back and I was so stressed while I was living up in Altoona that I took my stress out on my hands. I went into this itching episode and scratched at my hands until they began to bleed and they wouldn't heal. The doctor gave me some antibiotic for it and it did help. I ended losing my health insurance because my dad's work decided to drop me and only keep my mom. So I didn't have much of choice but to forgo my medication, doctor visits and everything else.


But I think I've done pretty good without the medicine. I have moments where I get sleepy or tired and spend my nights up and about while the rest of the world sleeps. My goiter causes a lot of neck problems and pains and makes my salivary glands hurt from time to time. I forget things from time to time and it takes a lot for me to stay focus on task. My hand tremors has not only messed up my favorite past time in drawing, but typing, and holding things call and will be a problem. Same goes for my legs, it's like an uncontrollable nervousness. I do pretty good with knitting and latch-hooking, just can't stay focus lol. It's like having ADD & ADHD at the same time. I work hard to cover it up and try not to show that I struggle or have a hard time doing simple or everyday routine tasks. I don't want to depend upon people in that sort of way. I want to try my best and my hardest first before I succumb to the need of needing someone.


I know eventually, everything will be fine. And if not, I'm ok with that...it's sad and makes me teary eyed. I know I gave it my best and worked hard. I'm proud of that. The one thing I hope for is that maybe one day there will be a cure for this disease and a way to correct it. I also hope that maybe the next life time I won't have to go through something like this again. And I also hope that if there's anyone out there who just found out that they have hyper- or hypothyroidism or even Graves Disease and a goiter, that it sucks at first I won't tell you any different. It takes time to adjust and get used to. Some people will not understand, while others will not care. But don't like it get you down or make you negative. It's ok to be Broken. It's ok to be different, just use that to a good advantage. Like for me, I try to have fun or learn something new everyday. You never know when it's time to kick the bucket. I also know that laughter is the best medicine and sometimes you have to laugh to keep from crying. And let me tell you, it has help so much, I couldn't be more satisfied.


This took a lot for me to accomplish without crying my eyes out like the true crybaby I am. And I'm happy I did so, I'm happy I was able to talk about this and let everyone know for that matter. It's bittersweet in a strange way. Another thing is not too many people know about the condition or disease itself and I was happy to see that it became a bigger concern when Missy Elliott announced she has Hyperthyroidism and Graves Disease. Even Oprah has a thyroid condition as well. Maybe this will bring more people to understand and learn more about the disease and condition itself and maybe someday there can be more help and more medication and even a cure.

So until that time let's keep our fingers cross ok??

Missy Elliott - Teary Eyed

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Resumé

This is strictly meant for future employers looking to hiring individuals of my caliber.


And this is also for those of you that might need some help putting a resumé together if it's your first time, or it's been a LONG time since you last made one. So in that regards I hope it helps you out ^_^.





Link to My Resumé

www.SauniRue.com

Hello Everyone!!
Now I plan on taking attendance, since I may have lost some of you in this wonderful "transition." Don't feel bad it caught me off guard too. Felt like someone stole my favorite plushie and my food and my computer and-and just all my shit!! Then mixed a couple dashes of disaster, fuck it ups, salt and vinegar to taste.
So not only was my mind blown, I had a few other things knock me upside the head. And I had to rush something I wanted a smooth transition for and to go into. But like I said its April, RIGHT?? Something always goes wrong! I dunno what the fuck it is but April ain't our month is it?? LMFAO XD.
So as of 2-something AM Eastern Standard Time. It's like 2:30am for me right now.

We've retired the website www.saunirue.com.

It's been good and we've all had a great time and I feel kind of guilty and sad. However I'm happy to be moving on at the same time and I hope you guys will be with me for every (future) step of the way until I'm like 4,000 years old or whenever I decide to croak lol. Then I'll have to get my kids or grand kids write some stuff up for you Guyz, Dollz & Groupiez. Hahaha!!
But I've planned a great LAST-MINUTE Celebration for SauniRue.com to show our love and gratitude!! Lol sad I can work well under pressure but I love to procrastinate—Ehh screw yawl it's a good combo =D.
Anyway I'm going to post 10 posts one a day about why I loved, hated, made, created, disintegrated Sauni Rue and all those other good bad negative happy things I may have forgotten too lol.
But in all seriousness. I decided to post this so you all won't end up lost, confused and ready to kick butt like I was this morning. Thank Steve Jobs for iPhones. Thank God for Steve Jobs lol. It's made my life a lot easier tonite, today or whatever.
So breathe, calm down. I ain't went nowhere, just like I said.
We just had to rush something we werent necessarily ready for you know?? But everything will get its life back together. So there might be a bunch of posts today and I'll need to rework my schedule a bit so of you don't hear from me in a couple days or so, don't panic or take it personal ok??
SO!! Until we can officially welcome the new website, you need to click the link below and bookmark it, or just replace SauniRue.com with the link below.
http://www.ItzMzBunny.blogspot.com
And when the new website comes or pops up we'll welcome it and mosey along with what we were doing previously—if I can remember hahahaha!!
In the meantime—Please bear with me until we get everything situated and UN-chaotic ^_^.
But after all this excitement I may need to cop myself a NAP!!!
Eyes is crossing and seeing double and shit lol XD.
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The Mathematical Tourist: The Street with No Name

So in the midst of my googling the other night I came across this picture that I fell in love with. I decided to check out the website it came from, something I rarely do not unless it's an interesting photo or I need a photo source or something. And all in all I'm happy I stumbled upon this!!!

The Mathematical Tourist: The Street with No Name


So for those of you that's getting to know me and haven't check out the About Me page.

My name is LéSans LéRue. My mama named me after my dad's ex-girlfriend from high school. Yea I know, crazy huh?? Lol. It's Canadian French for Street Without A Name or Nameless Street. Thank God we don't use American Meanings for our names right?? Haha!!


So since its a very unusual name there isn't much on it and not only is it hard to find someone named LéSans, finding those cute License Plates and matching accessories are like looking for a specific needle in a barrel full of specific needles—next to impossible. All the LéSans' I knew are older than me and pretty much all of them have passed on to the other side. Tragic.

Anyway from time to time I like to google and see if there's something new or added. And I came across the picture and decided to read the post.


So not only does he say where he found the awesome picture but the post is dated May 19th.


My birthday is May 20th.


If that's not awesome I dunno what could be hahaha!!


So I had to share this awesome good tidbit with everyone.

You never know what you'll find web you look hard enough!!

Not only did I find an awesome blog to follow but it had something to do with me as a person and became more than just a something but a great happy personal memory for me.

How Usagi lost Mamo-chan...

Soo........

Have a thoughts to write. Idk if it'll have a flow or not. Nor if yawl understand what I'm sayin but I'm just—well....dammit it's something I gotta do......regardless.




It's been w whole year since I met you.
6 months to let me get to know you
Even though I still want to know more about you.
It only took me 18 days to realize hoe much I love you.
How much I wanted to keep you
How much I wished you were mine.

We had a few good talks
& the eye contact is something I guess everyone wish they sought.
There was just sumtin about you that made me look at you.
Everything that was me, you liked it
Ur smile was so illumines
Couldn't wait to see it


I knew it from the start
Felt it in my heart
You filled up a void I thought I had lost
You made me happy when I thought ALL was LOST.
You were my everything—still is


I can't seem to get passed this feeling in my heart.
It hurts feels like my chest is caving inwards
I keep tellin myself no it's not true
When in actuality, I'm the one being difficult
But I miss you.
In sucha way I never thought be true


Then again I hate you
For mentioning her
Now WTF am I spose to do??
I guess u love her
I assume u need her
Want her
Miss her
Embrace her
Even kiss her....
What about me??


She may have loved you first
& I know she's ur Wife
But I'm sorry baby I just cant get past this.
I love you ........
& that's all that's to it
I would GIVE ANYTHING to be you
Even my soul....


But I cant give you something u already have.
You are my soulmate
You've had my ♡♥heart♥♡ from the g et-go
I feel so torn & so broken
And so confused
I just can't seem to find out....
What I'm fin to do


I wanna cry so bad
Just sob my little ♡♥heart♥♡ out
I may laugh on the outside
But I'm dying on the inside
My hearts broken
& he is who I want



But since....since I can't have him
Coz he love someone else
I guess I've gotta get it together
Move it along
And do what I gotta do



But I do this:
I will think about him
Miss him
Want him
Love him
& care for him


In the end I know this is clear;
He's the only man that'll have my heart, no other man will be able to get that near...


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3 Months. 3 Weeks. 3 Days. 3 Hours. 3 Minutes. 3 Seconds.

Hey yawl!!!

It's been a LONG ass time since I talked to my luv muffins ^.^. So ALOT has happened over the past 3 months haha. But imma try to keep thangs short and sweet. And make this post interesting, exciting, mind-boggling, & ABSOLUTELY AMAZING!!! (⌒▽⌒)



Sooo...um, last time I posted was right before my birthday. May 16 (had to go check that myself lmao). So if u didn't already know... I got my tongue and nose pierced ^.^ on May 13. Week before my birthday. It didn't hurt a bit am I'm happy to have both of them; even tho I say that the nose ring was a bad idea after all the times I snatched it out >_

Well as for my birthday. My DAY. it wa the worse fuckin birthday I've EVER HAD IN MY 23YRS OF LIFETIME T_T fuckin bill collector fucked it up saying I got money for my birthday that I could give to them or gifts I can go RESELL to give the money to them. Like WTF. What's funny bout these bill collectors. They threaten u sayin they're gonna fuck up ur credit while bitchin they want a cool SEVERAL THOUSANDS as payments. But here's the catch with a fucked up credit score u can't get a JOB!!!! ！(◎_◎;) SOOOO how I'm fin to get a job an pay you if yawl fuck wit my credit which makes the employers say OH HELL NAW!!! So yea wasn't a good birthday.

So May was pretty suckie for me.

JUNE!!

Well my friend insisted that I go back to school. And I am. It's called Bidwell Training Center. You can go for free if your a PA resisdent. All expenses paid and waved and all that goodness lol. So I'm taking up OFFICE TECHNOLOGY. It's a 5 month program from October to March and I graduate April 2011. ^.^ total plus rite??? WRONG!!!!! T_T so after u go to an information session & take the placement test (which I passed) u have to have an interview with the director of the program. & I'll get to that in a minute too.

So!! I had this friend who I consider a sister to me. Ya kno I was always there for her did everything for her. So long story short. Me being nice I buy her sum clothes then she got outta hand wantin to buy up the whole fuckin STORE T_T!!!! Spending THOUSANDS. Smh. So me and my homegirl tryna help her out get her to do sumtin constructive wit her life. So we called her all weekend long so she can go to Bidwell and she says ok. We didn't hear from her until the day of the information session like I'm ready to go. Ms. Kitten (my homegirl) tells her well it's 8:30am we don't have time to make it at 9. But we'll take you to a few places & apply for jobs. And she told her that I'd call her. So 12:30 rolls around and I'm up & red to go and I call her. She has this pissy ass funky ass attitude and after her convo she hangs up on me. Which pissed me off for the 2nd time coz before we took her to the amusement park and she acted a complete ass. Then had the nerve to say I have a tummy ache and a headache but the bish (excuse my French) wanted fuckin cotton candy cheesecake ice cream funnel cake all that shit. WTF if ur stomach hurts?? So I stop talking to her all together.


JULY!!!! *does air guitar riff* >_< ...... O_O *ahem* o_o anywayz


So I stop talkin to the crazy girl and did me. Coz I was tired of help someone that didn't want to help herself ya kno what I'm sayin?? So her main excuse was how her bf felt. But like look.... IDC that she has a bf that doesn't phase me. It's the fact you want to act like he's the best thing since toasters when I'm taking care of ur ASS!!! *ahem* so. I did me. Went to school for my placement tests and I passed with flying colours *hehe* and ribbons an all that goodness (⌒▽⌒). So I had an interview with the director of my major on July 29th. So I'm excited getting ready for that day. Got burncha clothes just in case coz I wanted to look nice!!! Even bot new earrings so I look presentable ^.^. Well I go. One I missed one bus so I said to myself the busway will get me there quicker right?? Wrong took me a whole hour -_- which made me HELLA LATE =(. So it took me 4 calls before I could get anyone to tell them I was having transportation problems rite. So when I finally get there I had to wait another hour. Around 9:45a it was my turn. So we gonna make this short. This lady jumps on my ass like I robbed 10 banks within the past 10 hours....she didn't like what I was wearing ALLL MY PIERCINGS were offensive my shoes were acceptable either blah blah blah so I walk away there pissed. Coz she judged me coz I was late because of the fuckin bus system *slaps forehead* So I need retainers for my piercings and a bracelet or sumtin for my tattoo on my left wrist (yea it's been awhile lol). Smh right??


So the 30th I decided to go out coz I was still pissed over that fucked up issue -_-. So I go to the nail shop around 2ish-3ish. So the 28th I finally talk to the crazy girl after a good month. And so I asked her if she wanted to spend time wit me. Ya kno I'm bein nice tryin to make our friendship work. So Friday the 30th. She comes to nail shop I pay for my nails & toes & her toes. So I had to go to the waterfront to pick up a few things. I stopped at the connivence store to get me a drink and this bish says to me that her BF SAYS I HAVE TO BUY PAMPERS AND BABY SHIT FOR THEIR BABY COZ HE SAYS SO. Look this bush grabs a cart I'm like o ain't BUYIN SHIT!! T_T PUT THAT SHIT BACK PUT IT DOWN DAMMIT. So we leave and she has an attitude or whatev and I couldn't do the waterfront that day.


The 31st of July.

So me & the Velvette Kitty is on our way to the waterfront to have a movie day or whatev. So crazy sends me a text message. And u kno the hello hey how u what's new convo or whatev. So I ask her what u doin today she's like haven family time wit the bf & the baby at the waterfront. I'm like oh ok that's nice. So we're at the movie theater & we bot our tickets so we went & grab a bite to eat. So Kitty wanted to say hello to her coz Kittys been workin and haven't had much time. So she says the bf won't let her tell US where they are. And we went back & forth so she leaves this voicemail & her Lil punk ass bf is draggin MY NAME THRU THE FUCKIN SHIT PUDDLE!!! Piss me off so it's like 10ish I tell her to tell him to stay where he at coz I'm comin to see him. He's getting smart and shit so when I find his punk ass I cussed him the FUCK OUT!!! But before I did that I was lady like and called & asked WTF the prob was. He goes in this stupid act & it pissed me off and then the Lil bitch HUNG UP ON ME!!!! THATS A NO NO WHEN U TALKIN TO BUNNY T_<.

So I call her and she's in a dumb act to and it pissed me off. And her excuse is that coz he's the fiancé she obligated to him. I'm obligated to piss in the morning WTF's ur point?? I was mad at her coz one she wanna be like how u gonna let *HIM* come between us like it's my fault & my dude. Then she's like well I'm just telling u how he feels. He's mad coz u all talk bout him behind his back. Well he ain't doin shit for u. Ur in a "transitional housing" & he's in a house living Scott free WTF that's not love. So I'm arguin wit her and him. So by time 1130 rolls around I'm still arguin wit her and she hangs up on me. She calls me 2 seconds later like my fone died. Yea I bet it did. So I was like fuck her fuck him fuck their issues I don't need.



AUGUST...... T_T

So August 1st. She's blown my cell up BIG TIME. Talkin all stupid an shit so it was a HUGE ASS FIGHT. It included me Kitty, my mother & her & him. So in the end nothing really got accomplished. Well except that they felt that it's my responsibility to take care o their baby ..... Which it's not. But I'm not gonna allow you to kick me in my ass for no reason coz you feel it's right. That's BULLSHIT!!!

So all together I stop talking to her........AGAIN. The time before she played me to the left.


WHICH BRINGS US TO YESTERDAY THE 15th of August.

Now I haven't had a real convo wit her in a minute. So she sends me
This IM like Hi there. Would it be possible for you to watch our son today. O_o! WHAT!? T_T. I told her no. 1 coz I have a cold (cot it the Wednesdays before got cot in a rain storm =p) & 2 u knew wt u wanted to do last week. WTF?? So she gets a tude & says well u wanted to before what's changed?? I mean, u claim him as ur nephew, so......??

I'm like look I don't claim him no more. It's for the best for all of us. No I am not watching ur kid u knew WTF u wanted to do today last week. 3 i have things to do in the morning and I'm not leaving ur baby with my mother since U 2 don't get along ok. So no she couldn't accept that she pops another tude and calls my fone 7 times last nite sayin how I'm being petty and how what happened 2weeks ago wasn't a big thing. So I argued wit her for a minute. And she's like u need to be a woman and call me. I'm like I have a fuckin COLD & A SORE THROAT WTF I'm not gonna waste what lil voice I got on arguing with u. So then she's like well if u have a prob wit my bf u talk to him. Which is how we all got to that fucked up weekend in the first place. I'm like WTF does that you kno??


1. It's not my place to talk to ur bf thats ur job.

2. He ain't got NO SAY in WTF I do on my spare fuckin time or any other time.

3. If u really wanted to be my friend my bff my sister NONE OF THIS WOULDA HAPPENED am I right or am I wrong???



So at this point in time I'm TOO THRU wit her & her punk ass bf. I got my own issues ya kno what I'm sayin?? And right I'm trying my damnest and hardest to make my life right and if ppl don't want to help a chick out.... That's COOL NO PROB. I mean hey OH WELL. But I'mma keep it movin ya kno what I'm sayin



So wit that shit said!!

HAPPY AUGUST YAWL

& yes

The

Bitch

is

BACK

(⌒▽⌒)

CTFUUUUUUUU!!!!


3 kizz, 2 hugz, 1 luv (^з^)-♡



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So I finished my hair!!!! Yaaayyy took me 2 days but I got it done
lmao that's all that matters but I likes it ^_^ do you likes it???
Makes me think back to them days when my >REAL< hair was actually like
this haha =D

New One ^_^ lol

Did I do a good job??

Haven't played with drawing manga in a while & was kinda bored lol.
This picture been on my mind for a while now so HEY put that on *PAY-
PUH!!* right?? =D lol hope you like it.

& for you Sailor Moon fans I hope this drawing of Princess Serenity
Small Lady pleases you guys ^_^ <3

Tattoos!!! =D

So I'm thinkin bout makin the one on my let hand a >PERMANENT< ;D

WE'RE BACK ONLINE ^_^

SO party peeps(!!) finally was able to get back online. Sucks tho, coz even though this old gateway hunk of junk that by the miraculousness of GOD still works, its givin me a hard ass time regardless -_- smdh.  

Here’s the 4-1-1. The phone was chillin in the RICE PATTY CAKE JACUZZI for FOUR yes 4(!!) days and YUP aint shit working *sighs* feels like I lost the love of my life….in once sense I truly did, so for now I’m going to put a few things on HOLD because since my phone took a swim in the toilet I had a LOT of posts that were begun or in the works or about to be finished *disgruntled sigh* so I’mma have to see what are the possibilities of me getting that *KINK* worked out =p.

NEXT!!!!

Um, I took the hard drive out of the HP the one with the BURNT screen. So after doing a few HANDY DANDY things, and looking for disappeared Restore Discs (and of course no LUCK finding them) I was ready to put it in the Gateway. Then I found out that the gateway can house two hard drives so I put the HP hard drive into the empty parking spot and had a few speed bumps and missed a few stop signs and lights before I got it a pretty good config…I still receive a few error messages and it’s been updating for about 4 days. So we got a working computer (some what) that’s better than nothing right??

iTunes…WTF!?

So in hopes of a WORKING COMPOOTER I was always in good HIGH apple pie in the SKY type shit hopes that I would have all my MUSIC from itunes right?? ^_^

Damn. Was I ever so wrong—

Stupid itunes kept telling me that my USER ID & PASSWORD was wrong… and after about a GOOD 3hrs of fuckin with that, it finally let me sign on. But here’s the best part no music….. no movies…..no shows……NO-THING!!!!! AAARRRRGGGGGHHHHHHH WTOSIT??? (what type of shit is this???) OMG you guys don’t know HOW PISSED I was to give my second to the LAST authorization on this laptop and all my music & stuff is GONE its *POOF* PWND -_- so now I’m searching files and stuff thinkin if I a copy or even a BACK UP of my itunes so that I can at least say THANX YA MUCH LAWD I CAN LIVES AGAINT…..but seeing how things are going, I serisously doubt that’ll happen. Now its not that I’m lazy but after putting in a few pretty pennies into ITUNES for music movies and more I WANT MY MUTHAFUCKIN SHIT BACK DAMMIT >_@!!!

Peachiness-ness ^_^

So back in the day a good 12 years ago lol I was a HUGE Sailor Moon fan. I mean I LIVED BY THAT SHOW made me actually think that junior high or high school could be that cool—I was wrong but it still gave me hopes. So I bot this collection for a pretty penny but its totally worth it, most of it is in Japanese. No biggie, I understand a little bit but I do have the subtitles up though haha. So I was googling about because I vaguely remember when the show started and I can only remember some of the episodes I seen so far (I’m still on part 1 disc 2 episode 1 lol). In the US the show made it’s debut in 1998 between June & July but sadly and abruptly ended in 2002 of July & August…quite honestly I think it was earlier than that but that’s my opinion. I thought it was a GREAT show!! It held my interest and was always kept interesting. I understand the whole thing with censoring the NUDITY and whatnot but UM isn’t Family guy censor and the UNCENSOR (or at least some) are aired on TBS & Cartoon Network’s Adult Swim…so what was the real excuse?? It was a DEEP subject when I reading that information today. But whatever I’m happy to have it and its been making my day ^_^.

So for now I’m in a depressing contented pissed off kinda livid mood. But I’mma make the best of it and do what I need to and keep it movin….*checks out hole in shoe* 6_6….O_O if I can last that long -_-.

My PINK ASS EAR!!!! >white gurl< lol

So I hadn't posted a pic of the earwig I put it a few days ago. While
I'm checking out the pics I took in like "Well DAMN if that's not
white chick then idk what IS!!!!!"

So yea I kno I need sum damn sun lol I can't help it thi my dad was
white so yea lol XD

Did I do A Good Job (2nd Time Round)?? Lol

Hey luv bugs here's a lik of what I been doin the past 2-3 days. I'm
still getting accustomed to the acrylics since I don't know too too
much bout them. But I think the art was a definite >plus< this time
around lol ^_^






The beginning with pink acrylics






Finished product!! ^_^





I think I did good this time I did rush or let myself get distracted ^_^ lmao

Ok so...

Pinky:
Tiger Stripes

So any nail are striper or deco works. I used LA Art Deco black white & glitter gold & Kiss' Nail art copper ^_^

Ring Finger:

China Glaze Moonlight (white background)
Stripe Rite light blue or sky blue
LA Art Deco black, glitter silver & hot/neon pink

Middle Finger:

Ultra Pro Fucshia (background)

LA Art Deco baby pink, white, Black & glitter gold

Index Finger:

I used the Seche Vite base coat & the Seche Vite Dry fast top coat first

LA Deco hot pink, light green, orange, yellow, silver, black & white ^_^





THUMB(!):

Sally Hansen Insta-Dri Night Fight (Black)

LA Art Deco white, magenta, glitter gold & silver

Stripe Rite metalic jade or light green

All have the seche vite dry fast top coat (best THING ever INVENTED!!)



^_^ so hope you like it lol when my other stuff comes imma try to do UV gel nails and see how that works. & get sum acrylic paints to do flowers and butterflies & stuff =D



As Always!!

3 kizz, 2 hugz, 1 lღv

My Best Design YET!!

Omg!!!

That's all I can say is

OH EMM GEEEEEE!!!! =D

>proud of me<

Instructions to come later!!!

<3

Now Thats What I Call Nail Salon vol. 1 >lol<

I'm a nail polish freak. A nail salon whore. But I'm not that one chick (or chicks) we all know so well with the color of the Skittles on her fingers that's tacky as i don't know what!! But anyway I've come to the conclusion that imma take my mama's advice (which isn't often) and start doing my own nails. Coz these HIGH as SKY PIE Prices & black sticky shit on the bottom performance & quality ain't flying for me NO WAY JOSIER *lol* so well see & what I do plan on doing guys is post a few pictures of designs and HOW TOs. Coz if you can polish your nails you can DEFINITELY do your own nails. So be on the look out on that we might start that for April coz I got a few back up that's going to get posted for March ^_^.

As always!!

3 kizz, 2 hugz, 1 luv

Wish

>Smexy Haute<

One lemme say that I just ABOSOLUTELY ADORE Photogene!!!! UGH that and
imgur and you're so set and on point wit ya fotos >ENVIED< lol.

Two. Yinz will get a good pic maybe 2mrw ^_^ lol hope yawl like my
hair coz I sho'nuff do lol.

HOLLA!!

My Shoes Are KEWL!! ^_^

Haha totally had to post this they came like last week and I was
sooooo excited to get them =D costed a pretty penny but totally WORTH
IT!!

It's Mz Rue Chitches =D lol