2B or Not 2B; The Life Of Singledom Is Pure Tragedy

Hi kids,

I know it's been awhile since you've last heard from me. Between dealing with work and the everyday pressures of being single. I swear I'd kill for a vacation from it all and to just be relieved for a moment you know??

But I decided to write this because several things have been irking me the last few weeks or so. To the point, I'm beyond frustrated. Like i'm at my wits end as to what to do to fix my life even to a more positive standing than where it is now.

Lately it seems like I've been getting more suitors than I can handle. Some are just weirdos expecting me to get super excited and lover-lusted just by them saying 'HI' to me. Which it don't work that way. I know that works for some of the whores of today but it doesn't work for everyone. But besides the jerks who sends me pictures of their cocks in my inbox like it's going out of style. I had one guy who's almost 20years my senior and is basically telling me that we're getting married and having kids. At first I humored him but then eventually told him I wasn't interested and wasn't attracted to him like that. Plus between the weird things like saying God told him to tell me that me and him are getting married, how I'll be the bestest stepmother to his 3 kids (one of which is a few years younger than me) as well as a good step-grandmother to his grandchildren, then how he wanted to cook and eat my pets...... Yeah I know right??

After that, I got fed up. I kept getting all these wild ass guys who basically telling me I don't have a choice or how I have to choose them or in some case GO TO WHERE THEY LIVE and be with them. No. I'm definitely not doing that, not only am I NOT looking for a man. I definitely don't need another one telling me I don't have a choice when it comes to picking a somewhat suitable mate. I rather not be bothered. Not that I'm super man hater, but why do I want to waste my time with a guy who can't even be understanding that I work and don't have time to fool around or have "fun" like he does?? One guy got mad because I don't know what time I get home in the evenings. Well it's rarely the same time. No I don't know because it doesn't matter in most cases when I finally get home I'm not leaving or going anywhere until the next morning if I work. But the funny thing with him, he can't talk to me past 9pm but he wants to come over to my house around 9pm to "hang out" with me. Lately they've all been telling me what I need and how they can give me this world of happiness and great sex. I'm like dude no. What I need is my bills paid, and my house fixed up to a better condition it is now. Your probably lousy sex and bullshit laced happiness isn't going to cut it for me. But yet I'm the bad guy or I'm wrong for not giving guys a chance. But I'm confused I'm not out there looking a dude. I don't have a need for one in my life. Shit I can't even make some arrangements to find a temporary space for one. And I'm definitely not going from dude to dude to keep that blissful lust ongoing. Don't have time for that. I'm not interested.

One thing that's really pissed me off is these dudes inviting themselves over for dinner. I can barely support myself and buy food for myself. Why am I going to cook and have you waste food?? If you haven't brought groceries then I'm not cooking for you or feeding you. I just think that's so rude for a guy to do that. Don't assume you're going to get a free meal off of someone. Yes it's nice to know if someone can cook or not. But you can't base a decision off of one ideal or good trait. That's like me being happy with a man who works, but doesn't provide or share expenses. I cook because I have to, not because I want to be this awesome chef and provide these awesome meals for a man later down the road. No I cook as a way of survival. No I'm not sharing because in most cases I had to fight to get my food stamps, struggle to get to the grocery store and struggle to get those groceries home and then struggle to make something that'll last me for days or even a week or two. Like get the hell out of here with that nonsense. I'm not your mom and I don't have to prove to you if I'm a good care giver or not especially if you aren't my husband, my child or my main squeeze. But lately men have gotten unbelievably rude.

Which then leads us to the whole why society seems to find it hard that I'm single. So many men would be happy to have me and how pretty I am and how I'm a hard worker. When I say I dunno or how I'm not interested then I have to get lectured on how I can't be a functioning human being without a man whose shadow I can gracefully walk in. It's like no that's ok I don't need a man. Then comes the whole well how are you planning on having kids ordeal. I'm not, I don't want kids. I don't want to be in the position where I would end up a single mother. Then comes you don't know that you might meet Prince Charming and he'll be ever so happy to have you nonsense. I'm like look with the way I attract the lousiest of guys, I doubt that'll happen. I'll be damned if I'mma be on my own raising a kid and doing and being everywhere without any help of whatsoever. Yeah that's a road I want to avoid at all costs. I don't want my own family, It's more of a burden to me now than it being a luxury when I was younger and wanted the husband and house full of kids.

But what's ironic, I remember years ago men wouldn't want nothing to do with a girl if she wasn't working or didn't have her own place. Now that I have those things, they act like I'm too independent and I need to turn it down several notches. But why? Why do I need to be dependent?? Especially on someone whom I'm not totally sure will be there for me when I really need them. I think that's why I'm so comfortable living and being on my own.

Yeah being a Singleton and living alone has it's perks and you can do what you want when you want and with whom and whatever else your little heart desires. But there are moments where I'll admit it's really fucked up to be on your own. Especially for those of you like me who were an only child, parents are gone or decease, family is just people you know of--literally, and the only friends you have either live too far away or are busy with their own goings on. So yeah most people paint this ideal apartment life and how cafes and corner stores and bookstores embrace this cute apartment you live in and how you can wave your arm or snap your fingers and the golden taxi takes you wherever you need to go. Unfortunately that's not the case for some people.

I decided to live on my own because I didn't like living with other people, the crazed rules. Being home for dinner at a certain time, curfew, laundry day, no pets allowed, you can't do this and you can't do that. OH MY GAWD I'm damn near 30 and here I am being treated like a 13 year old. I couldn't stand it. Taking on a house by yourself is a lot different from apartment life. I had faith I could it on my own but I realize now (two years later) that I can't do it all by myself. I tried getting a roommate but after having the tenants destroy my house that is a no go for me. But bills are costlier. Hell my electric bill is more than my paycheck in a two week period! All my bills were extremely high this year and that was with costs going up. With me being garnished at work for my student loans, not only do I have a smaller paycheck, but trying to divide a little over $800 a month over everything that costs $200 each. I can't do it. I've lost my mind trying to make this work for the last 3 months and it's not working. I'm tired of busting my ass 40 hours each week and bringing home less than part time pay. If I miss a day of work I'm screwed. So I'm at this dead end like what the fuck am I suppose to do?? I have no one to depend upon--no one. Trust me it's no picnic. I've been trying to get home from government programs but since I'm not a single MOM, and I'm not a BUM by choice so I cant get any type of help of whatsoever.

It's like I've entered the ugliest nightmare ever and people keep telling me the only way out is hard work, determination and faith. But it seems when I do all those things I keep getting dragged back into the darkness. I'm ready to sell the house and wing it. I'm just tired I guess. Tired of everything being weighed in on me. I don't have the option to have someone to depend upon or to make phone calls or to handle business when I can barely function with everyday life due to overworking myself. I don't have someone to call when my bills get behind or I'm struggling to buy food. I'm on my own, for everything, for anything.....forever.

Here I sit with a jacked up knee. I fell on sunday and scraped my knee really bad. Also scraped up my hand and my toe and even sprained my ankle too. No matter how many calls I made to clinics today to see if someone would see me, I got turned down. The better clinics are too far to walk with my messed up knee. That's the messed up part about living utterly alone. It's all fine and dandy until you get sick or need some serious help. But i knew that ahead of time when I decided I would pursue life on my own.  I just assumed that I could handle it all, not because I felt like some goddess or super woman. I was comparing it to my single life I had in college. While college wasn't super efficient, it was a more attainable lifestyle. The grocery stores were around the corner or a taxi ride away. In some cases we were spoiled to have a cleaning crew come and clean the rooms and bathroom and so on and so forth. And bills that occurred every month was nothing more than a cellphone bill. It was highly different. I've noticed with trying to figure out what the hell was wrong in the world currently. It began to make sense when I finally researched it. Majority of singletons my age are in apartments and if shit hits the fan they call on their support system to dig them out of the hole or prevent them from drowning. Me I don't have that. If I fuck up with my bills even for a month I'm screwed. Now I'm trying to figure out how I'm going to pay my property and school taxes, if I'll have enough money to renew my license. But what worries me the most if I should happen get deathly ill or god forbid die, who's going to think to even try to see if I'm ok or not. I'm prepared with the thought that it could happen, but it would suck that months after I've died and my cats too probably and someone's like OH HEY IS YOU OK OR NAH?? Most people that call in to "check in on me" basically call me like I got all the resourses in the world. They tell me they saw a car on sale for $5000 out in some godforsaken land that they happen to drive by (but can't come get me to see it or get it if I had the money because that's not their problem) or how I should do this or do this or go here, there and everywhere like I have a car to get to this places and majority of the buses once you get off the bus line you need to be ok with walking 15 minutes or more to the next location. Or they wanna tell me if you do this with you bills or get a roommate or get a better job or jump over the moon backwards while counting the alphabet in pig latin. But when I ask well can you help me out, then I have to hear all the excuses of how they cant or won't but have enough audacity to brag to me about all the people they've helped like they're the saints of all saints.

Things like that pisses me off, you have so much say in everything I do but won't help out at all. But then throw it in my face like you wanted to live alone and be an adult so figure it out on your own, but if you get a man then it wouldn't be a problem. Like he's gonna help me out seriously?? Yeah, there's a reason I decided to live on my own, I learned that people are so damn unreliable and I end up doing stuff on my own regardless. Of course after I struggle to get through the task at hand, I always get that oh you should've called me I would've helped you out. Yeah, sure you would. 

Bottom line, being and livin single is remarkable. You learn a lot and grow up real fast and fine out what's more important in life and to you and to your personal well being. However if you have a terrible or no support system, then the entire burden is upon your shoulders and you fuck and trip or waver, you will be crushed by all that you're carrying. Then you'll know how it truly feels to be alone. Honestly if you can't handle that, then you're best living with someone. Otherwise if  you can handle it, be prepared to turn into a cold heartless, evil ass bitch/bastard. 

Happy St. Patrick's Day!!

Burnt Paper Nail Art

Definitely Not A Fan

Interested In Making Money?

Hi kids,

Now if you're like me and basically poor, finding a job has been harder than everyone says it is and these so called get-rich-quick schemes and hustles don't seem to be doing it for you. Then any way to make a few quick bucks is a plus, just as long as you have the right mind set. Accept that you'll get a few pennies first before getting pissed off because you haven't made your first million. Like cool it hot pants, your last name isn't Trump nor are you next Microsoft genius....baby steps, baby steps.


Anyway I came across this awesome little something known as CashFly. I've seen good and bad reviews but for the most part it's really easy and makes a lot of sense actually. I can't believe there wasn't something created like this a lot sooner and made just as easy. I've come across quite a few over the last few years looking for every possible way to make a few dollars.

If you're interested definitely click the link above and if you need a real true-to-life example check out Linkstopia that's where I found the Teen Spirit movie at. I must admit I was amazed. Plus you can't knock it, especially if you aren't into webcaming and porn (or haven't gotten up the nerve to head into that direction just yet) this is a better option to consider.

Blue Bunnies Go Vroom, Vroom

So whilst I was kicking it with the Auntie today and watching Judge Mathis with her. Judge Mathis was handling this one case where the woman was suing her "one night stand boyfriend" roommates over lost of personal property and whatever else that was silly. So it was mentioned that she was homeless and living out of her car. So then later they start talking about a few missing items and then she said some one took her sex toy. So the roommates said they didn't take it and how she took it with her back to her car. Well the bailiff makes this joke about the sex toy being plugged into the car cigarette lighter. As they giggled on the TV like little kids I couldn't help but wonder if there was such an invention and thus you know me I had to go and google that subject because I wanted to know!!


Low and behold guess what I find! 

This awesome article on TrendHunter about the Rabbit Travel Vibe. YES it plugs into the car outlet (they were called cigarrette lighter outlets when I was a kid lol). HA! Go figure right?! Unfortunately the link the author had for you to purchase it was a dead end. Thus I went on an adventure to search for it and found it on Amazon for $18 plus the $5 shipping fee (also found it here and found a review on it here). I'm like hot damn! But now I have to wonder, does someone actually own one of these and uses it while driving?? I would think that would be a bit dangerous--in all seriousness. Or maybe that's the way you charge it, you think?? Well here's the kicker, it's not a dildo or a traditional vibrator where you insert it in the vagina. It's more of a bullet. Imagine the Rabbit Vibrator, minus the penis part. I guess it could be fun and quite interesting especially if you're in a lone parking lot by yourself or with your hunny and wanted to get some quick action lol.

I personally love the color and love that it's a Bunny lol. I think it's a fabulous idea, even better than wooden dildos!

Tell me would any of you buy this and keep it in the glove compartment??

Hurry! Hurry! Read All About It!!

afeedworld.com

Subscriptions can be quite informative when you don't have the time to browse your favorite site or blog or you might be away from the internet but you're email subscriptions keep you up-to-date.

What I love the most about subscriptions is learning about news that I may have missed, learning something new or keeping up with some of my favorite sites. The other best thing about a subscription is that in my case since I'm a blogger, I get to connect to people on a more personal level. I don't consider any of my followers or readers just random people or one of thousands.

I took into account when I was building my own blog and having a RSS feed subscription was nice but I felt it wasn't personal enough to make my readers or future subscribers feel like I cared enough or how much I truly appreciated them for taking time out of their day to look at my site and find something that not only interested them but even gave them something that they may have been looking for, needing or that little push we all need at some point in our lives. This year in the midst of all my changes I decided that I wanted to make that more of a personal commitment and I created a newsletter. It's nothing fancy but I also know how much it's a pain to go see what's new or sit there and wait for something new or reread something you've already seen hundreds of times, right?! Thus the newsletter not only shows you the newest post but it also gives you a list of previous posts so in case whatever I talked about for the day doesn't interest you, there's a possible replacement. Then if you have a friend you'd like to share the email with you can. I made it so I can personally address everyone who signs up by their name and show them what's new. Not too many subscriptions do that, either! (if you'd like to know more about my newsletter: click here)

Unfortunately there's many of us who are baffled as to what a RSS Feed Subscription is, it's basically the same as a newsletter. Mostly the emails are sent only when there's a post, oppose to the possibility of newsletter sending something everyday or a few times per day. There are many ways to manipulate and use an RSS feed, many keep it as a back up or reference, while others use it as a slight alternative to a website without having the customer/reader go to the actual website to get what they want or looking for or even buy. Many stores have subscriptions so they can send their customers coupons, deals or offer some type of reward. While blogs and other sites offer information that their readers and subscribers may find interesting. Other do it to stay connected to their readers and even build a bigger audience.

I'll even admit and say they are quite hard to deal with when you first get introduce to them. But there are plenty of websites out there like this one that helps you along the way in the most easiest way as possible. I happen to use Feedburner in the beginning but I didn't like the whole bland look it gave whether it was emails or the actual feed itself. This year I switch to MailChimp to make it more easier to design and edit and make it more user friendly for everyone and not just myself. Both work the same way and give whoever subscribes to my blog an update (when I have a post for the day) on the new posts. It's a lot of work, but I think if you're readers and customers are satisfied then you've done a good job. Or at least I think so lol.

Skyscrapers

Yay for a Nintendo 3DS showing you vidoes right??

Anyway, I couldn't help but love the video and about all else I love the singing and the song, it has such a sexy intimate feel to it. Not in a dirty way either, like it's so sensual you forget everything that's going on around you. So of course you all know me I had come and share it with the rest of you. I remember the group definitely, can't remember what song they sang that I was fascinated with years ago but I really do like this song a lot!! If you're a lover of good music then you'll definitely like this song.

Enjoy

Mad People

Cute Food

I thought this was absolutely adorable when I found this on Facebook a few weeks ago. It's cute for your little one's lunch or even to get them to participate! 

Oooo what if it had cheese in there OH MY GOODNESS I'd be so excited to eat this and squee at the adorableness of this food porn lol.

If I find the recipe, I'll definitely post it for you guys and dolls 

Just A Few More Things....

So while I'm sitting here wondering how to keep things interesting and make it interesting for everybody. I've decided that for the month of April that I'll give you guys a double treat. One for the girls, and the other for the boys. The more I pondered it, the more I loved it and it brought back memories to that DIY project a few years back that got sort of got started and could barely survive unfortunately. So I think now that we're in the right frame of mind I totally think we can do this. It won't be perfect as you all should know by now, but trust me it'll be well worth it!!

For girls, I've decided to do it a DIY so to speak of Cute Nail Art Tutorials and other such said things when it comes to Nail Utopia. I may even take the time out to do the tutorials for the 31 Day Nail Challenge, as well as I plan on posting everything (as for the 31 Day Nail Challenge) on Preen.me. If you've never heard of it, it's a cute website that is all about Fashion and other fabulousness. However I think it'll be best because you'll have a full list of everything used and I'll post the tutorials on here. We'll do visuals and I'll try to keep it as simple as possible. I'll also let you know the materials I used and other such said things. That'll be my project for you girls. So you girls will get interesting Nail Art, etc. & Nail Art for the 31 Day Nail Challenge. And we'll call this cute project The ItzMzBunny Nailgasm Cram Course.

For the guys out there. I thought it would be sort of a bummer to leave you out and have you forced into looking at just pictures or old posts (which there's nothing wrong with and it is welcomed! lol). So I thought why not have something for the guys.....but what?? I was baffled honestly. Then it struck me, why don't I help you guys who aren't very articulate with girls or have a problem approaching the, or hell you don't know what to say to girls any more. I know guys have been having problems with finding nice girls and then those of you are upset when you end up with that Phantom of the Opera chick who's sweet and nice one day and then for 365 days she's like that bitch from the Exorcist movie......Trust me I understand. So I thought I'd give you guys some tidbits and few basic things that work for most females. Please by all good things holy don't tell the girl that I told you to tell her to suck your cock. I'd be very disappointed in you. There are other approaches that are better, for the sake of girls it'll make things easier. Some times you have to take the longest route to get the most out of the trip! So for you guys, you get to attend ItzMzBunny Crash Cram Course of How To Deal With Females (if you want to). For short we'll call it the HTDF Cram Course :).


I will say that either of you can check other the project, it doesn't have to be a "gender only" thing. Hey guys make want to make their girlfriends happy and do her nails one day. Girls you may want to know where you should be when Mr. Nice shows up to talk to you.

Either way I hope you guys and dolls enjoy yourselves as always, definitely be on the look out for this awesomenes next month!!

Free Saint Patrick Goodies From Bunny!!

SO because today is Saint Patrick's Day I thought I would give everybody a handful of gifts!

How nice am I??

But since you also know I'm an jobless Bunny, your gifts are reduced to nice fancy holiday themed buttons haha. Sorry but it's better than nothing at all right??

Anyway share them or post them to your site, you can even upload them to wherever you want. Two of them are basic holiday themed and pride showing buttons while the other 3 are Bunny Boo Fan Buttons similar to the ones on the Goodies Page.

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Top 10 Ridiculous Sex Laws

Happy Belated Pi Day

I thought I should wish everybody a Happy Pi Day even though I'm late lol sorry about that. But here at Bunny Boo we celebrate holidays like White Day haha.

Any enjoy this wonderful picture of Pinkie Pie :D

Happy White Day!!

HAPPY WHITE DAY EVERYONE!!

I thought this year we would talk about a few interesting holidays here and there. This one I wanted to talk about especially.

Now the only time I had heard about White Day was in different Animes or Mangas. Prior to that, I was clueless.

Then I assumed it was just a holiday that wasn't celebrated in the USA and left it at that. Until one day I decided to look it up and honestly not only did I fall in love with it. I wondered why The States hadn't adopted such a wonderful approach to Valentine's Day. Here mostly couples celebrate it and that's it, it's a Hallmark Holiday and always will be. There aren't any Singles this or Friends that on that day. It's kind of segregated, rude, mean and just down right sickening.

This concept of the girls giving the boys chocolates and the boys having to reciprocate and do the same for the girls is a nice idea. At least you know if Hottie McHotPants is into your or not and you know how to move on (Not to mention Black Day is in April so you can celebrate that too!! But more of that later!!) and if by possible chance they feel the same way, you might be able to turn that crush into something more meaningful.

Anyway, about ten days or so before Valentine's this year I got an email from TokyoPop talking about White Day and all it has to offer. Here's an excerpt:

In Japan, Valentine’s Day is actually two days – the traditional Valentine’s Day on February 14th and White Day on March 14th. Instead of everyone exchanging gifts in February, only women give gifts to men that day. Traditionally, the gift is chocolate – simple chocolates for friends and acquaintances and large, intricate, often handmade pieces for those for whom the woman possesses romantic feelings. There’s enough chocolate exchanged on Valentine’s Day in Japan to keep Sailor Moon’s Usagi AND Death Note’s Mello happy for weeks! Well, Usagi would have to wait til March to get hers, but you get the picture. [Read: Culture Yourself: Valentine's Day In Japan]

Love the Sailor Moon reference didn't you?? lol

Even though this is a Japanese and Asian celebrated holiday it doesn't mean you guys and dolls can't celebrate it the way you see fit. Or even make plans for next year to follow suit and hold your Valentine's and White Day the way you want to. If by any chance you're unsure, the links above will give you a little help. Definitely check out these links on White Day Gifts and How To Celebrate White Day and if all else fails, watch some anime lol. The one regarding White Day gave a nice mention of Black Day but you'll have to wait until next time to hear about it :D. Finally a day for the Singletons out there!!

Anyway, I hope all you boys and girls out there enjoy White Day with the people who mean the most to you or those you love the most. Maybe next year we can get The States on this band wagon ;D.

The Bisexual Bunny

I never really told you guys and dolls how I became bisexual. I thought I would take the time out and talk about this. In one sense I feel the need to defend my honor, my beliefs, and how I truly feel. Because in this world of ours nowadays we get so much peer pressure that it causes us to get cloudy thinking and make bad decisions and end up regretting something we did.


Now after some thought I finally found out where, what and basically why which is a good thing. Maybe I hope this helps those tweens and teens out there who are pressured about their sexuality and can't really make a decision.


Now I can say as for being a kid, I was straight and was perfectly ok with it. Then I wasn't exposed to much sexuality debates like you are now. Back then, bisexuality was like a Pokemon and Homosexuals were more silent than your cell phone could ever be.

I recall being a tweenie, coming into my young girlhood and finding out that you have hormones that makes you attracted to some and vice versa. That's usually how it goes lol. I remember back in Catholic school I had a crush on a boy there, because I had such a pea-brain I assumed he liked me. Wasn't the case, and as far as things went, I was just another movable piece of building that magically talked for some odd reason. But wanting to be wanted by the boys is a difficult task, hell too many girls and the boys are all fighting over for the other girls.

Well I decided not to lose hope and continued to Junior High School where I thought there would be at least one boy to like me. Well there was, but he was so wishy washy, I honestly think now all he wanted was to raise his limited education on sex by hooking up with as many girls as possible. Even when I asked him if we were going to, he said I would say yes no matter when he asked me. Yeah he got on my nerves and got ignored quickly. I'll even go as far to say he may have been my first kiss, can't guarantee that lol. Sorry! But I do know as far as getting semi-intimate with anybody back then, it was him. However he wasn't who I lost my virginity to. That was a summer fling that was almost like a long lost déjà vu type of dream. As I got comfortable with being at a new school for a fourth time, I began to notice that a lot of the girls were overly developed. They had the biggest boobs and ass for weeks! Like it wasn't normal, it makes me appreciate the crazy proportioned women in anime now that I'm older.  Not only did fighting to get some guys's attention become harder, but I was also ridiculed for being flat chested and having no ass of whatsoever. A piece of 2x4 wood had more curves than I did. It was tragic. Yet I couldn't help it and no matter what I stuffed my bra with, it didn't make my poor barely B-cup boobs any bigger. Also on the same token a lot of the girls when I was in high school either had kids or were already pregnant at some point and had an abortion. So that's the only viable reason I can come up with to why they looked the way they did.

Even in high school, same story, same problem, same result. I guess it was around my 9th grade year, maybe when I was about 15 or so. I began to wonder what a relationship would be like with a girl. Like intimate like one you would have with a man but with a woman the whole while still considering myself as straight. Unfortunately even back then, they made you choose between being gay or straight. In my case I began to felt uncomfortable in both areas. The more and more I considered this thought of being with women, made me wonder if in fact was I homosexual or was I confused. More like overly bi-curious. Why? Well after being rejected by just about all the boys at school, I diverted my attention else where. I never really was attracted to any of the girls at school. Not one comes to mind really. So in the midst of all of this, it wasn't until I met my one friend's older sister. I love her personality, her attitude was feisty and she had a gorgeous shape. Skin the color of Nutella, plus she was so mature, I couldn't help but be attracted and say I want to be like her. Then I found myself genuinely attracted to her. I loved talking to her on the phone and always enjoyed every moment I could see her. She was one of the main reasons why I got a tongue ring, because she had one.

Then I was confused. How can I be attracted to both males and females. This isn't right I can't be straight. It doesn't feel right, but neither does being gay....


Later, I found myself talking to homosexual females. What I didn't know then, they don't really approve if you want to play both fields. However they don't like it if you say things like:

I'm thinking about being gay since it seems like no guy is attracted to me.

Oh my goodness they will fly off the handle like a crazy person! I found more and more women who were gay like that. When I got to college one of my first friends there was bisexual and I loved him to death. He really made me happy. We were best of friends, shame that time makes you lose contact with some really great people though. However with the same kind of hope, that some guy will like me, I went to college thinking that it's ok to have a want or be curious about things every now and then. When I ended up with guys still not being attracted to me like the way they fawned over the other girls and did whatever to get their attention. I found myself diverting my attention again. Then I questioned if I was bisexual or not. By then my friend had left the college and we were beginning to lose contact and I really couldn't ask him any questions like I wanted to. So I kept that thought to myself.


It wasn't until 2009, when this guy was forcing me to move to Georgia and build this life with him. At first I was attracted and genuinely interested. He never asked me out or said hey lets hook up. Nothing. Then I found out he was "keeping his options open," and also me moving into a house with his mother and sister living there was a VERY BAD IDEA. So as I was talking to one of my bestest friends, and telling her how I felt, she told me well just embrace it and let it go, so what who cares? For the first time I felt like I could be myself. It was a nice day that day I was talking to her and it was the end of April. I couldn't help but turn my gaze away from the blossoming trees, pond and nature scenery—a beautiful sight—to look at this girl who's skin was slightly tanned, jet black hair and the most mesmerizing blue eyes I had ever seen. She had this mind blowing shape for a white girl and wore her yoga pants—well. I was happy. I enjoyed every moment of it, and if she wondered or looked at me funny, I didn't care and felt so much better.


Now believe it or not I did "come out" to my mom, that summer. Watching TV and they made mention that Megan Fox was bisexual. It seemed like a lot of people were displeased but I agreed happily. My mom asked me if I was bisexual and I told her yes and she said ok. Recently I jokingly told her I was gay and she said well if you're happy I'm happy. She doesn't fully approve of it, only because it's taboo and not what's said in whatever old book of whoever. But I don't care and carry on anyway lol. But it doesn't mean that it's that easy for everybody though.

It wasn't until last year when someone questioned my decision and told me that I was a closeted gay too afraid to come out, plus I was sexually confused and would never come to a happy medium. Honestly I was hurt! That was a like a blow to my heart. You questioned who I was as a person as far as I was concerned. Then when I found out how Lesbians felt about bisexuals, I was not only shunned but I had a new found outlook on them as a whole. I'm not saying all lesbians are like that, but look at it this way. Lesbians refuse to be in an intimate relationship with a bisexual woman. The reason being is because they don't like that she's still attracted to men and that at some point she's going to flip flop. Or how it's just a phase to get over, or that bisexual women aren't the type of women to be in a committed relationship with another woman. The stuff they come up with is crazy. I respect them and their decision but if you don't like straight people telling you should be straight and intimate with a man. You shouldn't be telling a bisexual woman that she needs to either be straight or gay. That's just as wrong! I dislike them for that. Sorry nothing personal, just saying how I feel.


I found out while finding a woman to be intimate with was hard and they put on too many unnecessary demands as far as being bisexual. I couldn't stand it, I then found out it's best to find other bisexual women to be intimately involved with for the sake of all things.


However, maybe that's not the say for other bisexuals. But I know for me, I am attracted to both men and women. They both give me a ladyboner and I can mentally switch back and forth between the two and still stay aroused. I fell in love with a man and I've also been in love with a woman. I enjoyed both for different reasons and I'm happy I got to experience both. There are things that both men and women do that make me angry and I want to be asexual or no-sexual lol. However that's what happens when a personality is conflicted. Even now being out as a bisexual for 4 years, over all being mentally bisexual for over 10 years, I wouldn't change my decision and I enjoy every moment of it. I don't care what people say or if they judge me. I feel comfortable, I don't have to hide or feel ashamed. I'm not confused and I can honestly admit that I'm attracted to both males and females equally. I'm even attracted to transsexuals  there's nothing wrong with that either.

So think about it, I was bisexual 6 years before I decided to embrace and accept the notion. Also on the same token, I guess I'm a Bisexual with a dash of Pansexuality. That too is fine by me lol. For those of you that were wondering or confused, you've heard it straight from the Bunny's mouth. Oh and yes I will be posting cute little Bi-Pride buttons on the Goodies Page!

I hope that we can get more bisexuals who aren't afraid or find it taboo to come out about say:

HEY WE DO EXIST!! WE'RE NOT LIKE OUT COUNTERPARTS WHO ARE CONFUSED AND GOING THROUGH AN APPARENT PHASE!! 

But that's all in due time right??

Jigglin'

When I first saw this gif the only thing that popped up in my head was this 

Ying Yang Twins song and I died of laughter lol. (hit the play button below & then scroll to enjoy :D)

Ying Yang Twins - Jigglin

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Not To Be A Total Pervert Douche, But...

This Nipple Ring is very pretty ^_^ I see a bunch of pretty ones on Body Candy. I think the nipple shields are ADORABLE!!!

Would I?? Yes, someday I probably will lol. 
Why?? I think of piercings as body art and decorations, not just for fetishes or peer-pressure.
When?? Hmm, I dunno....maybe around or on my 30th I'll get another piercing or 20 ;D haha

Bunny's Got A Secret ;)