Say It Isn't So!?

Well fellow moonies if you haven't heard the bad news by now, I'll try to break it to you as easy as I can....

I was checking my email minding my own business and I'm reading the newsletter I get from Nerdist News & TokyoPop. they have confirmed that the 20th Anniversary airing of the new Sailor Moon series is not only delayed but it might not air officially until the end of Next Year!!


The newsletter stated that one of the editors on the new Sailor Moon project accidentally had a slip of the tongue on twitter (of all places!) and said that the project had been delayed. It was also suggested at that time that it wouldn't air until the 2014 Winter season. The Kodansha editor Fumio Osano, also known as Osabu, tried to clarify his 140 character statement by saying that yes the anime is delayed and as for it coming out in 2014 that's a big maybe. I took it as that its a draw between this upcoming Winter season and sometime in 2014 and for all we know it may not be until 2015. Which to me is kind of sad and a disappointment and shows little professionalism in their regards.

You don't promise something and then don't produce it. Even if they had to make the first season 13 or 26 or so episodes. That's better than saying well not right now it'll be happening sometime soon. That's worst that procrastination. Not only did you announce it was coming out this year, but even went so far to say definitely this summer..I was super duper excited and planned to plan my summer around it but now it's sort of a bummer and I really don't know if I'll be excited when it comes out. I don't know fellow moonies. Maybe they'll get it together and figure out what they're doing exactly soon—hopefully...

Happy Valentines Day

As The Carrot Turns

If she fine or she thick, goddamn

Walkin' past the mirror, ooh

Damn, I'm fine 😏

Reason 5: Work Ethics

I always thought I had a pretty decent worth ethic. I learned the basics from my parents and always felt ready for the working world. Unfortunately, I wasn’t. I was prepared but definitely not ready. I was told by my parents that if I showed up to work on time, be a team player and go in everyday no issues the employer will love me and I’d have little to no issues. I could succeed within the positon and company and create a career. Which is true, but only so much.

 

They only talked to me about how work ethics worked when they were working which is some 40 year difference. Then jobs accepted people and trained them and gave them job security. Jobs nowadays barely even offer paid time off or health care. I never thought working would so damned difficult. There I said it. I don’t care. It’s difficult as fuck for no reason. The prisons treat the inmates better than these companies do. I took my parents taught me into my jobs but I never considered that they would go unappreciated and I would be taken for granted and advantage of. I would be considered more of a crutch to the company opposed to an asset.

 

I had to learn that being early gets noticed but not for me being a diligent worker. One job had me show up almost an hour early before my schedule shift and then not pay me for it. Others have had me start as soon as I got there. No no. I start at 11:30 I’mma be ready for work at 11:31 not 11:14ambut you don’t start paying me until 11:31…. No no honey it don’t work that way and I’m not having it. I’ve had my paycheck messed up and no one wanted to fix or correct it. I’ve been promised time off and it get revoked without my knowledge. Even when getting dismissed from a company I received misinformation or information LATE and then told it was my fault I didn’t ask. How am I going to ask for information that is supposed to be given to me so I know to ask. It’s not like we’re talking potty training here or that we know blue and red makes purple. This is that oh you should’ve know that blue and orange make gray or that 1-2 month old kittens don’t know how to pee unless you rub their tummy. Shit that I need told to me. But I’m supposed to know this next level knowledge. I don’t like that. But I know it comes from this well I had to do it and so will you thought process but that’s not fair to jeopardize someone’s livelihood to quench your insatiable thirst.

 

However, I learned something with the last two jobs I had. Just can’t do my FUCK THIS JOB I’M LEAVING temper tantrum anymore. I’m getting older and it’s getting harder to find a job, let alone trying to find help. Single women are the country’s favorite thing unless we’re getting married and popping out babies. So instead of spazzing out like I want to do, I can’t I have to accept the mistreatment *eye roll* and keep it pushing if I want my job.

 

But(!) I decided to do things differently this time. I’ve been working diligently on my side business. I always pushed it to the side because I felt it wasn’t a right time or I wasn’t as financially stable as I wanted to be. So I continuously put it off, plus I wasn’t sure what it was going to be anyway. Yeah I did my flips and sold items years ago, but I needed to do something more. Especially now since items and resources are so readily available. I consider doing nails but I also didn’t want to be put in the position where someone is petty and wants to report me. However someone gave me an idea last year and I was able to turn that idea into something and it started me to think of other things to do. So now I’m making hair jewelry, eventually I’ll be starting on bath bombs, lip balms, soaps, maybe bath salts and still perfecting roller ball perfume. But what if I start something magical and not so clichéd? I think that’ll be awesome. I’m super excited about it. So between my 2 jobs, I’ll be working on my business as well. Lets not forget I wrote 3 books, and hoping to publish more (goal is to publish 2 this month). Since I’m self-publishing I’m still working on getting it distributed across all platforms as well. I don’t want to work for someone else’s dream to make a livelihood while being unappreciated the entire time. Yeah I know I won’t hit instant success but I also don’t want to be stuck scrounging for income because I lost a job or had one taken from me because someone else saw fit. That’s ok, I have a backup plan to a backup plan and I’m damned and determined to succeed.

Reason 4: Crying Helps

I used to think that you had to be strong for all things in life. People take the benefit of the doubt of crying as a child because it’s a form of expression then. But as you get older they say to stop crying or stop your whining, you need to grow up or toughen up. But why exactly? Probably the reason why so many people have mental issues because society regulates when and how they can be emotional so to speak.

 

Unfortunately I was a product of it to. Crying was always bad. I’m a crybaby. I can recall spending a many of days in my room crying or sobbing softly to myself because I didn’t want to be scolded or ridiculed by my parents, family or friends for being weak. They made me feel that was my most vulnerable state and my world would fall utterly apart if anyone saw me or heard me shed a tear too many. To a point it did help. It toughen me up where it’s rare if I do cry. Then I came across a saying that state crying helps cleanse the soul. Which I do agree. But I think it does more than that. It relieves the frustration that was building up, that break down helps make things clearer, it brings that raw emotion that is by far the most fascinating that we don’t see every day. We see sadness or forced sadness but never someone crying. Babies cry at everything…but you’ll never see an adult doing the same.

 

When my dad passed, I cried a lot. When my mom passed, I cried here and there but it was so emotionless. To the point it bothered people that I was walking around sobbing. HUH? What do you mean?? What the hell? Then it dawned on me well people want to see you cry to take pity on you and it gives them an emotional boost. I remembered it from when my dad passed everyone was so sorrowful and wanted to be helpful. But when the help was really needed or wanted; they had more excuses than a man caught cheating on wife. It was sickening to me. But I refused to be in the same situation crying for comfort and people aren’t doing it for my best interest or out of love but to feel inferior to me. So I refused to cry. I didn’t want to be perceived as weak or vulnerable. 

 

It bothered people. A lot. 

 

 

But then shortly after my mother passing, and things weren’t going right and people were treating me like crap and the realization of being just ME on my own forever. It tore me apart. I wanted to cry but I knew that I shouldn’t because I didn’t want to be weak. But I learned that I can hide how I truly feel. Whether I’m being honest with other people or not. I need to be true to myself. I learned I started to feel a whole lot better when I did cry, even if I was in so much pain. People are going to judge and say I’m weak because I haven’t experience child birth or had my first love break my heart… there is not measurement in how broken you can feel.  There isn’t a determination of worthiness when you need to breakdown and cry. Shit happens, although crying doesn’t alleviate the issue, it takes off some of the frustration and cloudiness.

 

Now I find that the slightest thing sends me over the edge. I watched a kid movie a while ago and I started sobbing uncontrollably like a baby. I got teary eyed driving to work today thinking about the bad day I had yesterday, even though I cried about it yesterday after work. It’s sad as hell but I like it. I feel like I’m back on the right path. I feel emotionally better, it still needs work but I feel like the burden has been lifted some. I feel like I’m on a new journey of rediscovering who I am and who I was.

The Everything Condom

 

Niggas

AF

Talk

Unfuckwithable

 

Turning 30

Hi kids! 

I know it's been a while but I had to chat with you guys and dolls. Check to see how you all are doing. 

These last couple months been interesting. Lost my job, had to struggle, fight to get some help and st the end of it all realized how other people view my worth. 

So on May 20th I turned 30 years old. 3 DECADES!! Can you believe it?? I can't. Hell I still get carded for cigarettes and alcohol. But I'm happy I made it to this age. I plan on focusing more on me these next 10years and do what I want to do without any issues, distractions or setbacks (major ones). 

However I feel like I'm not where I should be as a 30 year old. I also realized I let a lot of people in my life who weren't good for me and never had my best interest. No matter how I viewed myself or loved and cared about myself—they made me accept the worth they felt I should be and receive. They're like a pawn shop. You take your tv that's in excellent condition that you spent $700 on and you only get $100 for it. It's depressing. No matter how much value it holds or how you know it's great. To someone else it's not. People treat other people like that. 

I consider myself a good woman. I treated my boyfriend (now ex) with respect, love and affection the whole nine. I made dinner, I took him to work, picked him up, let him borrow my car, even gave him money when he asked. Sex at his wants. He won't do the same for me. Not only did he cheat on me with someone I knew relatively well, he disown our child, hated I got pregnant, treated me like shit, said I cheated on him, was a whore and would be a horrible mother. In all that he hurt me, broke my heart. But this last two months he showed me the ugliest side of him. Not only was he happy I lost my job, but he wanted me to fall and felt I shouldn't get back up. Even told me to let my utilities get turned off and had no intention of helping FOR ANYTHING. Even then it wasn't the thing that broke me. It was when he said to me yesterday that our relationship was only in existence so I could suck his dick.

Yeah. He did. He said that's all I was good for. Even said I never cooked for him, or gave him money or did anything for him. But the only thing I could do for him was suck his dick. And our relationship is failing because I refuse to suck his dick when he wants. So because I refuse to do that we can't spend time together. 

THE FUCK KIND OF LOGIC IS THAT?? 

Our relationship is fucked up because I allowed him to be secretive with me and was in denial of his horrible behavior. Our relationship is fucked up because he cheated and acts like it's not that serious. It's fucked up because every time we need to talk things out he wants to blame me and say he's done no wrong. It's fucked up because I take him back thinking maybe this time it'll be different knowing damn well in my heart it's not. It's fucked up because he never planned on respecting me from the beginning. The only way we can fix it at this point is probably with counseling or him learning to accept he's done wrong. 

Like he literally thought it was ok to tell me he's coming over and never shows up. Then never call or text and say he's not coming. He felt that wasn't an issue. But I'm sitting at home telling my friends no to outings because I'm waiting for him to never show up. 

Now don't get me wrong. I love him to death. However I don't appreciate how he treats me. I love myself and some even consider me selfish. I bust ass for what mine and will stop at nothing to get it. I'm one of those Phenomenal women types. Yet he treats me like I'm a back alley prostitute who can't even get money for giving sex favors. How is that even possible?? Like that hurt me to my soul. I felt my soul crying out in pain. I felt sick to my stomach and wanted to cry my pain out. I wanted to scream and throw punches. I consider myself a motherfucking princess and he just told me I'm not and I'm whale shit, I'm nothing. And regardless of how I feel, I will never be treated as such by him. 

That was by far the most surreal experience I've ever had. And I was shocked and disgusted. 

It made me sit there and question the entire time I've known him. It made realize that men and even friends and people will still view me how they feel I should be viewed. No matter how much I protest and say how I want to be treated. They will never treat me with the respect I feel I deserve. Because they're going to treat me how they want, whether I like it, accept it or not. It's unfair. It hurts a lot. 

However since I just hit 30. I've decided to only keep the people who I care about and I know care about me as close as possible. Everyone else will be dealt with at a long distance. And focus only on me and what I need to accomplish to make my 30s the most entertaining and exciting. I want to travel, I want to experience new things, I want to meet new people, I want to work (maybe lol) a job that I can enjoy for maybe 10years or so. I want be able to learn how to be a Better woman now than when I was in my 20s. I'll be damned if anyone interrupts me. I don't have the time anymore. I'm ready to work on being the best LéSans I can be and this time I don't give a damn about how anyone else feels about that. 

Struggling Adult

 

Bitchcraft

 

Bitch

 

When You No Longer Give A Fuck

 

As The Carrot Turns

So since I'm no longer working, I'm back to my Bunny Mobile Car Service and picking peoples up and driving them here, there even to and fro! Honestly I'm already tired of it. The traffic has been REDONKULOUS these last couple days like what the actual fuck?!

I dunno if I can take much more of this....

Whisper: Facials

 

Whisper: Bye Felucious!

 

Pet Condoms

 

Yes you read that correctly! 

So I happen upon this by chance looking for material for Condom Week as usual. Though I think I out did myself years ago with that awesome Condom Week Safe Sex Awareness month years ago lol. 

Anyway. I thought it was hilarious. Like really?? They make a condom that little and inconspicuous to the pet to use so you're not a grand mommy to pups and kits? What the actual hell?? So I did some research and actually it has an awesome story behind it. 

So we all know it's best to spay and neuter your pets, right? For their best interest and for the next generation's and yours as well. Because let's face it. You decide on what you can handle as owner. I know my limit is two cats and maybe a fish. But 8 cats??? Yeah it's going to be a problem lmao. So these Pet Condoms  They're actually an advertisement wrapped in a cute condom wrapper to promote the positives of spay and neutering pets! How cool is that?? 

Check out this video! 

I'm blow away at this advertising win! I'm shocked that this wasn't a national thing! If only they could promote this kind of awareness for younger generation and hey it can be a baby doll or a baby item even with a tag on it and a fact. Or even a link to a website that shows the positives of safe sex! 

I say pet condoms are for the WIN! 

Whisper: Choking Hazard