“LéSans’ Silioquy”

Feeling the darkness around me
Watch as it embodies me
But—
In one sense its where I love to be
To hear the whispers of the nite
As the creatures & itty bitty monsters deliver fright
Hmm what a delight
To see the fog roam the ground in search of life
But I’m wondering & pondering
How’d I get here?
How’d this feeling get there??
Making me unaware
“Twas a midsummer night’s dream”
I heard the gallows whisper & say to me
What flesh is heir to is what Hamlet questioned
What life is geared to is what Sauni Rue is asking
Decision, Decision…
Living in this hell driven dream
As I hear in a distance that life isnt always what it seems
I thought it was things?
Well then…
Tell me then, what tis the things that mean to me?
Full of hate & discontent
Whispers screaming out loud
Unforgettable that IS what you are
Its ever so confusing &disturbing
To see Baby Boo cry this way
But you tell me how many people you’ve seen cry blood stricken tears
Not as much as I had hoped
Watched the grey clouds rolling like an in-coming wave
Don’t tell me to behave
When you are the one getting your way.
Black cherry hair slain by the Burgundy Blush
Just to feel THAT touch, again—

Twan was Tagged by Ms Qaadir aka TIMAYA - Next

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They blowin UP Da spot!!!!


heeeeyy!!



Get into it, you mite like it ;D



3 kizz, 2 hugz, 1 luv Amentes!!

Its funny how life takes pride & enjoyment in effing you around.....just when you think things are goin good life comes & delivers unto you a flying bitch slap & says deal wit & moves on to the next......for me this is when i hate life & cuss ppl out >_< becoz i just dont get it & it makes no sense you cant always have what you want & in life that prooves tru...then what i ask you; what are do so much for life when the grand prize is death?? Hmmm

Big & Chunky

http://www.imeem.com/people/PLEdfCE/music/4TMMIcjt/william-big-and-chunky/

I Like Em BIG & CHUNKY

Chunky!

Chunky!

Chunky!

Chunky!

I like 'em big, I like 'em chunky (CHUNKY!)

I like 'em big, I like 'em plumpy (PLUMPY!)

I like 'em round, with somethin somethin (SUMTHAN!)

They like my sound, they think I'm funky (FUNKY!)

My name is Sincere Love, yeah it gets you sprung

Say my name boy (Sincere Love)

Say it again (Sincere Love)

I'm nice and smooth, so nice and sassy (SASSY)

No other chicas don't wanna get next to me



I like em chunky, chunky, chunky, chunky, chunky, chunky (CHUNKY!)

Plumpy, plumpy, plumpy, plumpy, plumpy (PLUMPY!)

chunky, chunky, chunky, chunky, chunky, chunky (CHUNKY!)

Plumpy, plumpy, plumpy, plumpy, plumpy (PLUMPY!)



I like em papis

Thats oh so wild

I like they attitude

I like they style

The way they walk, walk

The way they talk, talk

I like em witta big one

One that can’t been seen in the dark, dark

And when he comes too close he got me barkin

I love every inch,

Oh yes I do (I love you too baby)



I like em chunky, chunky, chunky, chunky, chunky, chunky (CHUNKY!)

Plumpy, plumpy, plumpy, plumpy, plumpy (PLUMPY!)

chunky, chunky, chunky, chunky, chunky, chunky (CHUNKY!)

Plumpy, plumpy, plumpy, plumpy, plumpy (PLUMPY!)



Aint nottin wrong

With lovin chunky

I like em funny

I like em spunky

I like em witty

I like em smart—with brains!

Boy I Like your big—.

What you say?!



Your big ol heart ;)

What?!



Boy you crazy

He drive me crazy

I love my baby

He nice and shapely

He nice and spacey

Take so much space up

Like a big ol spaceship

Movin so gracious



yes



Its all in the way he moves

Its all in the way he moves

Its all in the way, Its all in the way—

Its all in the way he moves



When he do, what he do

What he do, what he do, what he do, what he do...



Get it boy

Get it boy!



chunky, chunky, chunky, chunky, chunky, chunky (CHUNKY!)

Plumpy, plumpy, plumpy, plumpy, plumpy, (PLUMPY!)

chunky, chunky, chunky, chunky, chunky, chunky (CHUNKY!)

Plumpy, plumpy, plumpy, plumpy, plumpy, (PLUMPY!)





Aint nottin wrong—

Chunky!

Plumpy!



Aint nottin wrong—

Chunky!

Plumpy!



—With lovin chunky



Chunky, chunky

Plumpy, plumpy

“Happy St. Patrick’s Day”

Here’s to

Another Green year that’s full of

Parties, green beer and shamrock shakes

Particularly to the Irish and Scottish people without

You we’d have no gingers *lol* just kidding

Seriously tho, I should know

t.his the time of year where my hair turns FIRE RED, but I aint get that from my mama

Pops actually gave it to me *cheese*

And-OH PLEASE, come ON it was joke why’re you

Taking things soooo seriously you’re being

Ri-dic-dic-diculous, 'diculous, *Hiccup*culous—oh

In-excuse me, had a lil too much

Coz that’s how we do, it’s St. Patty’s day for GOD’s SAKE! O_O

Kurrently—opps O_O--*C*urrently I plan on using the day for my own personal use

‘Spose I shall go to the store, hmmph *shrugs* but in my

Dire opinion I think we need as ppl to CELEBRATE this holiday

A lil bit more, but it wont be soon before long before

You see Peter Cotton tail Hoppin' down that damn trail, *scoffs* holidays are so overratedly commercialed

*hiccups!*

Ooohh excuse me ^_^

*lmao*

Just something quick this week i came home for spring break and I never realized how MUCH(!) i would miss home...no im not home sick i just missed that warmth & comfort, i missed the idea of being in the ghetto hood being able to go places i couldn't but either way for the time being im happy.... Just this up comin sunday becoz its back to hillbillie hell

*lmao*

Dramisery

If it aint one thing its another

People causing Drama

But you know Misery loves company

Mysteriousity

Walking into a dark club

It’s pack and full

Me and my grils ready to pop some bubb

Men for the eyeful

We make our way to the bar

Grab our drinks and find a places to sit

The good men shouldn’t be too far

But there are some fine looking fellas I must admit

After chillin for a few

Me and my girls make our way to the dance floor

We all lookin for a man to grind onto

Gots to be some men out there wantin to score

Then I happen to turn around

There he stood six-foot-tall

He had me spellbound

Had me wishing he would throw me a catcall

Then it seemed like everyone around us started to disappear

He had a gorgeous roan complexion

It was very clear

This man was fine; to satisfaction

Studded glistening in his ear

Dressed to impress

He had that good gear

The makings of true success

The more he walk closer to me

The faster and harder my heart would beat

I had to ask myself, what the hell is wrong with me?

Everything about him, from the way moved to the way he smiled; all was discreet

He was only inches away barely

All I could hear in my ears was the sound of my heart beat

Even through his clothes I could tell he had a beautiful body

He was fillin me up with heat

He rubbed his hand up and down my arm

Almost had me wantin to faint

A smile like diamonds, only just to perfect his charm

I had to hold my constraint

He whispered in my ear

Voice that was smooth as silk

I gotta gain my composure before I mishear

I knew he was of my ilk

He asked me my name

Hearing him say was the most beautiful thing

I hope he was feelin the same

He’s got me cravin

We danced together

Had a few drinks together

I played with the thought of him being the one

He was hot like fire

He had me goin crazy

When stepped all up in my space

I wanted him badly

Makin my headrace

Eventually we found a lil dark corner to call our own

No one there…just us

He let it be known

How much he wanted me too; with his suaveness

We started feeling each other up

But it wasn’t until he kissed that I knew he had to be the one

We wanted to do more than just hookup

We were moving so fast, we didn’t even know what was happenin

I had to ease him off me

Coz I needed to know one thing

One too many men are attracted to me

I need to know where he stands; coz there aint no use in continuing

He looked at me with his gorgeous brown sugar eyes

I’m sorry, baby, but I need to know…why do you wanna be with me?

He looked at me and said it’s not your body, cute face or your beauty…

He said there’s something about your mysteriousity…

I Washed My @$$

Katy Perry - I Kissed A Girl

This was never the way I planned
Not my intention
I got so brave, soap in hand
Lost my shyness
It's not what, I'm used to
Just wanna try it on
I'm curious for it
Caught my eyes

I washed my ass and I liked it
The feel of the soapy suds
I washed my ass just to try it
I hope my roommate don't mind it
It felt so wrong
It felt so right
Don't mean I'm dirty tonight
I washed my ass and I liked it
I liked it

No, I don’t even know this game
It doesn't matter,
This is my experimental day
Just human nature,
It's not what,
Good girls do
Not how we should behave
My head gets so confused
Hard to obey

I washed my ass and I liked it
The feel of the soapy suds
I washed my ass just to try it
I hope my roommate don't mind it
It felt so wrong
It felt so right
Don't mean I'm dirty tonight
I washed my ass and I liked it
I liked it

I liked it

Us girls we are so magical
Soft skin, red lips, so touchable
Hard to resist so soapable
But you can’t deny it
I’m washed, I’m clean, so Fresh can’t wait to do it tomorrow nite!

I washed my ass and I liked it
The feel of the soapy suds
I washed my ass just to try it
I hope my roommate don't mind it
It felt so wrong
It felt so right
Don't mean I'm dirty tonight
I washed my ass and I liked it
I liked it

I liked it!

^_^

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The Spoken Word of Sincere Love
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Acrylic Nailz

It’s a Friday afternoon
And I don’t have much to do
I’ve called my mom and talked to all of my friends
My mom was busy and the girls wanted to be with their boyfriends
There’s nothing on the tube
Damn I ain’t got nothing to do!
I sit on the sofa, wonderin what to do
I turn the tv on just for the company
And whatever’s on, isn’t interesting
I get distracted and start checkin out my nails
Tinted in a dark blue
While the pink-cappuccino color is pealing
Looks like color glass that was shattered
With a hammer
Damn my nails look bad
I sit for minute
Then get the best idea
Forget this
I’m going out
I turn off the tv and grab my purse
Grab my keys and start on my field trip
As I arrive at the spot where I wanna be
I get out the car and head for the door
The people inside spot and look at me
Some smile, while others greet me
I sign my name on list
And take a seat while I browse thru a magazine
It’s only a few minutes before my name’s called
And I take a sit down in large comfortable desk chair
The guy takes my hands and carefully massages them
He takes out his tool
And starts working his job
With precision and ease
He gracefully places each one where they should be
Still using his tool, he knows exactly what he’s doing
I swear its my favorite part
As I get up to take a quick break
I make sure that I wash my hands carefully
I wouldn’t want him getting mad with me
As I make my way back to my comfy chair
He does the finishes touches
And ask, “What color would you like?”
I look over to the wall full of colors
Hmmm, what color do I want?
Then I get the perfect idea
I told him
That I wanted purple tips
And black with white flowers
Knowing him
He’s gonna make it look beautiful
He always does a good job
He says to me, “I know how to make this look beautiful”
He puts diamond studs on all my flowers
Uh! It looks more than Gorgeous
It’s stunning!
As I look at the beautiful he’s done
I can help but smile
I take out the 30 that’s owed to him
And I make sure to make another appointment in two weeks
As I walk out the door
He shouts for me to have a nice day
As I step out into the sun
I look at my nails as they glitter and sparkle
Oooo I love it when I get pampered
Especially when it comes to my nails
Hmmm… I’m feeling so good
I might go and finish getting pampered
I’m goin to get my hair done

To be continued…

Spoken Word from Sincere Love

there are nites *poetry bongo music plays* where i want to MASE HER in her sleep

*snaps from the crowd*

there are nites *music continues* where i want to STAB HER in her sleep

*more snaps from the crowd*

THEN there are NITES *music gets INTENSE* where i dont wanna use my 243 MUSCLES TO FROWN but to USE MY 4!

YES FOUR!! *music continues*

TO GIVE HER A FLYING BITCH SLAP AND say to her!......*music stops*

SHUT

THE

FUCK

UP

HO

GO

THE

FUCK

TO

SLEEP

go to sleep ho


*drops head and snaps*

*crowd snaps and whistle*

that was my poem...i wanna kill my roommate

ty

peace

*throws up deuces*
*bango music plays and fades*

1-900-SINCERE

After a long, hard day

At work, you wanna relax

Cut loose and do what you wanna do

You walk in your front door

While loosening up that tie

Throw your suite jacket on the sofa

And you head straight for the bedroom

You change outta those dress clothes

Jump in the shower

Enjoyin the way the hot water runs down

Then you start thinkin of me

You open your eyes

Turn off the shower and get out

You put on a wifebeater

And a pair of sweats

Yes, you gotta be comfortable tonite for sure

Before you leave the bedroom, you go to the nite stand

You open the drawer

And there you find a small ripped piece of paper

It’s got my name and number on it

You hold it in your hand

And think about the last time

You make your way to the living room

Grab the fone

And get comfortable

You hold the fone in your hand

While thoughts of me run in and outta your mind

You punch in the digits

With anticipation roaring in your stomach

You just cant wait to hear my voice

You know exactly what you want

And tell me all of your needs

As I hear my fone ringing

I know it’s you

It’s 7:30

Right on time

As usual

As I answer the fone

Before I can say anything

You say, “Baby I need you”

I can tell

You can’t mask that heavy panting

Sayin, “I just can’t get you outta my head, girl

“You rock my world…”

Well that’s my job

Then you ask, “What are you wearing? What are the color of your draws?”

For right now, all I’ve got on is a robe

I already know we’ll be talking for a lil over an hour

That’s your style

And I love how you play

Getting me hot and wet

I’m better than Juicy Couture

While I get you all hot and bothered

Making you wantin me more

But first you gotta let me do my job

Can’t be getting trouble

Nor do I wanna lose you

Coz you’re my best customer

So how bout it?

You give me a sigh and then a laugh

And say, “Ok, do your job baby”

Puttin a smile on my face, I say

1-900-Sincere

Sincere Love at your service

What kinda pleasure can I bring you to tonite?

;)

(Written by Sincere Love)

If....^_^

If I were a month, I'd be: December or January

If I were a day of the week, I'd be: Well I am Wednesday(Hump Day) ^_^ but I'd like Friday

If I were a time of day, I'd be: 3am coz the night's still young and it isn't tomorrow yet :D

If I were a planet, I'd be: Neptune

If I were a sea animal, I'd be: Betta (Siamese Fighting Fish)

If I were a direction, I'd be: East

If I were a piece of furniture, I'd be: A sofa bed....comfortable and a place to lay one's head :D

If I were a sin, I'd be: Lust :-*

If I were a historical figure, I'd be: Phyllis Wheatley

If I were a liquid, I'd be: Water

If I were a tree, I'd be: A Neanthe Bella Palm Tree (cutest tree ever!)

If I were a bird, I'd be: A Blue Jay

If I were a flower, I'd be: A White Rose.....or a Black one ^_^

If I were a kind of weather, I'd be: Nice Calm May Shower

If I were a mythical creature: I'd be: A Mermaid!

If I were a musical instrument, I'd be: Psh! A Flute of course!!

If I were an animal, I'd be: Tigress!

If I were a color, I'd be: Sweet Mocha

If I were an emotion, I'd be: Sincere Love ;D

If I were a vegetable, I'd be: A Carrot

If I were a sound, I'd be: oooh, oooh wee

If I were an element, I'd be: Earth

If I were a car, I'd be: A Royal Blue 1960 Chevy Impala ^_^ low-rider baby!!

If I were a song, I'd be: A Cheating Song :D hee hee

If I were a movie, I'd be: Woo

If I were a food, I'd be: does Sugar count?? But if not I'd be Ice Cream cold at first but very delighting ^_^

If I were a place, I'd be: Well I'm all ready Canada lol....but I'd wanna be Caribbean :D

If I were a material, I'd be: Egyptian Cotton or Silk

If I were a taste, I'd be: Your Favorite Candy ^_^

If I were a scent, I'd be: Sweet Seduction ;D...no just kidding Morning Glory

If I were a religion, I'd be: Buddhivoodiptism (Buddhism, Voodooism, Baptism) ^_^

If I were a word, I'd be: technically I am a word (Street w/o a name--Swan) but i pick Love

If I were an object, I'd be: A Priceless Rare Silver Ring

If I were a body part, I'd be: hmmm, I'd be Eyes....because they're visionaries :D lol

If I were a facial expression, I'd be: a Smile *dida-duh*

If I were a part of a house, I'd be: lol i thought about bathroom but changed my mind no no j/k Bedroom

If I were a subject in school, I'd be: Astrology

If I were a cartoon character, I'd be: TWEETY! or Mickey i like both

If I were a TV show character, I'd be: lol Stewie Griffin from Family Guy :D

If I were a shape, I'd be a: a heart

If I were a number, I'd be: 52087 ^_^

Attention

I just can’t seem to get his attention
No matter how hard I try
I just can’t get thru
Whether I wear make-up or not
Or wear my hair up top in a bun
Or down in something cute
Nothing seems to do
He’s everything I’ve ever wanted
From the way he smiles
To the way he laughs
Makes me wish I was the one tellin him that joke
From the way he walks
To the baggy slim way he wears his jeans
OH how I wish we coulda spoke
I love how he fixes his clothes when there’s nothing wrong with them
To the way he repositions his jewelry
Everything about him got in me in complete disarray
I wish I could talk to him, just like I want to
But he’s not like other guys, he’s quite different
But it seems like every time I try, I chicken out and stray away
He’s so unique in his own way
I can tell he’s one in a million
Nothing more, nothing less; he’s perfect
I can always talk to other guys
But what is it about him that’s got me daze, confused and mesmerized?
It’s apparent it’s not him; it’s me who’s the conflict
I don’t know to do
I don’t know what to say
But, yes, he’s got me restless
But wasn’t it me
Who said to speak what’s on your mind, let that person know what you’re feelin?
And I thought I was the Sexy Taurus Temptress
I guess I jumped in a game without knowin the stakes
Bit off more than I could chew; Bet on more than I could bargain for
I guess I’m not all what I crack up to be
Then I think, even if I did…would he give me the time of his Yesterday?
No matter what I’m still gonna be loving him more and more
But, I wish, and I hope; that maybe
Just maybe, one day he’ll see, and notice me
But even for something as wonderful as that to happen…
First
I gotta get his attention.

Phone Call

It’s been a long day
Work was a hassle
Like always
But I’m happy to get home
Kick off my heels
Change outta these dress clothes
Get into something more comfortable
I go to the fridge to see what’s there to eat
Tonite…I don’t feel like cooking
Maybe I’ll order out
Yeah I think that’s what I’ll do
So I hit the freezer up
Grab my favorite ice cream
Häagen-Dazs’ Coffee
Grab a spoon from the drawer and head to the sofa
As I get comfortable and turn on the TV
I notice the blinking red light
I stop for a minute and look
Hmm, it’s the answering machine
Wonder who called me?
So put down my accessories of ice cream and remote
I walk over to the table stand
I see I have 15 messages
Damn
Who coulda been hittin me up?
I wonder…
Then I start smiling
It’s gotta be my baby
Wanting to kno how I’m doin
How was my day
What I was doin
Whats on my mind
Well if that’s the case I can think of a few things
I would love to have the company tonite
Besides I need a lil fun myself
I start to reminisce of the last time I saw my baby
We foreplayed
He worked over time in me
At the end had me beggin him not to leave
Hmmph!
Yall just don’t know
I snapped back to reality
When I realized I was feelin myself up
Thinkin bout him
Damn, he got me clumsy
I’m so Anxious
I wanna call him back
And see if he wanna Come Over
Coz he’d got me jonezin and I kno he gotta feel the same way
All I gotta do is lay a few lines on him
To get him all hot and heavy
Yep, that’s what I’mma do
I’mma call him back
I’m so excited and smiling
I press the play button
With aspiration of wanting to see my baby
He got me—uh!—drip-drip-drip-DRIP!
As I wait to hear my baby’s smooth voice
Sending shivers and chills up and down my spine
As he fills my answering machine with sexiness
I’m so excited I can barely contain myself!
Damn I wanna see him!
But then my smile fades away
And I stare off into the distance
Wondering what the hell?
My buzz is gone
I actually got a frown on my face
In one since I’m pissed
But I can’t be mad…
I was really anticipating seeing my baby tonite
Well I guess that’s gotta wait
I continued listening to the messages
Then I realize all 15 messages
Were all from my mother
I guess I better give her a Phone Call…

Singles Conversation

Ok yall....so peep this. I've got this issue. It seems like that since I'm SINGLE there are more than plenty of single men, bachelors, w/e you wanna call them. Men have this thing that when they're single or they've single for too long they wanna get with someone. Doesn't matter how they do it just as long as they got a girl to call their own. Which is totally fine if its gone about the right way. However, then there are men who've been single for too DAMN long and are having a MID-LIFE CRISIS as well as their BIOLOGICAL CLOCK IS TICKING.....so they try to get with whatever comes their way. However they do in such a way, whoever they find, they will STOP AT NOTHING to get that girl to be WHAT THEY WANT and how they want. Its just that simple. However what the fail to realize, maybe that woman doesn't want to be in a relationship thats so committed the point in only includes marriage and birthing children. Especially if that woman is still considered young for her age. Now my whole problem with the situation is, no I don't mind talking about it, nor do I mind CONSIDERING being a girlfriend. HOW-EVER....I will NOT change because he feels I should. And what I mean by that is. If I say no I'm not interested or no I don't think its a good idea or NO I DONT WANT TO. Then that man needs to respect that and say ok and leave it be. HOW-EVER.....because of how men think. The think that if they keep asking the question, at some point she's going to give in and say YES if not HELL YES. Now I've been going through a similar situation. I like the guy I will admit and were we are at currently in this so called relationship of ours....it's as messed up as can be. But he's forcing me in a subtle way in becoming his girlfriend but I'm not interested. I mean YES i do want to be in a relationship but because of how STUPID men and BOYS act....it pisses me off and I'm sorry I can't deal with the bitchassness. I'm sorry. However for 4 yes 4 FOUR nights in a ROW....we've (meaning me and this guy) has had this same conversation. Well actuality it started on Valentine's Day, coz since he was single he wanted attention and his ego stroked and at the moment I was in no mood I had my own problem I was dealing with.

But I told you once, twice, thrice and NOW 4 FLIPPIN TIMES. NO I don't want a relationship, besides me having my own commitment issues. I don't want to be forced into a relationship coz his clock is ticking. Nor am I going to be the lil housewife. I don't MIND being a HOMEMAKER, ok, don't get it twisted. I have a PROBLEM when a man feels thats all I'm good for, besides bearing his children and be his whore during the nights, his trophy wife-slash-accessory for outings. I'm sorry, I don't play that, and NOR will I have that. And yes I know that was a double negative, but deal with it chickens. So some of you are like OH YOU'RE BLOWING THIS OUTTA PROPORTION! and MAKING A MOUNTAIN OUTTA A MOLE HILL. No I'm not and to prove a point......I'mma let you guys read one of conversations.

Which is why the title is named as such......Singles Conversation.

btw....me and this guy. We're like Whitney and Bobby.....we know how to push each other's buttons. Our sad ass relationship is just excluding the "I LOVE YA BOBBY" crap coz we ain't goin there. Those of you involved that know what's goin on, you understand WHY i said such.


But the way I see it. If all I'm going to catch is men like him below, then I need to reel it in and take my fishing hook the HELL HOME. And stay to my damn self I'm better off and I have less bitchassness involved and then I WONT have to babysit a GROWN ASS MAN o_O


Just as a side note.....we've been talking for SOOO long that he knew me when I had long hair. Now my hair's been short for a GOOD WHILE....you do the math :)


anyway

Enjoy pretend it's Young and the Restless ^_^......


Now to my beeps, my friends, my homeys, my besties.........what I wrote in here when i mention friends don't take it personal, because with him you have to prove a point. He feels all women are all the same desparately seeking for a man. So nothing to you I still LOVE YOU ^_^ mucho besos :D. Also those of you that know me and KNOW ME WELL....know that I want actually 6 kids yes SIX kids, but you'll understand this as you read that crap at the bottom....
And just so my girls and male FRIENDS kno......he doesn't like yall at all. Especially the besties....all of em.


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Me (8:17:48 PM): sorry i don't mean to ignore you just workin on homework
MR. SINGLE (8:18:17 PM): It's cool. I understand
Me (8:18:48 PM): how are you today??
MR. SINGLE (8:19:07 PM): I'm good. How you doing?
Me (8:19:18 PM): i'm alright a lil tired is all
MR. SINGLE (8:19:33 PM): yeah but that's nothing new with you though. lol
Me (8:19:39 PM): tru
MR. SINGLE (8:19:54 PM): you have alot of homework to do?
Me (8:20:00 PM): yes and no
Me (8:20:05 PM): its for my communications class
MR. SINGLE (8:20:15 PM): oh okay I see.
Me (8:20:44 PM): i have to create a newspaper article as well as create a business and promote it in my newspaper too
MR. SINGLE (8:21:09 PM): wow sounds like alot of work to do.
Me (8:21:20 PM): its a lot of creating mostly
Me (8:21:34 PM): gotta come up with names and logos and stuff
MR. SINGLE (8:21:50 PM): okay. you having any luck?
Me (8:21:55 PM): yeah
MR. SINGLE (8:22:02 PM): good.
Me (8:22:03 PM): got a few things together and others in mind
MR. SINGLE (8:22:15 PM): okay that's good to hear.
Me (8:22:29 PM): you sound like my parent or something lol
MR. SINGLE (8:22:48 PM): lol. naw just trying to be a good friend that's all.
Me (8:22:54 PM): i see
MR. SINGLE (8:23:18 PM): it sounds like you need one of those more than anything else.
Me (8:23:26 PM): not really
MR. SINGLE (8:23:31 PM): oh okay.
Me (8:23:46 PM): i've got my bestfriends no doubt but technically not really
MR. SINGLE (8:23:55 PM): okay.
Me (8:24:31 PM): you forget i'm a only child
MR. SINGLE (8:24:42 PM): yeah I did.
Me (8:25:09 PM): so it's just me and majority all about me ^_^
MR. SINGLE (8:25:23 PM): ok
Me (8:25:31 PM): yep yep
MR. SINGLE (8:26:04 PM): you have class tomorrow?
Me (8:26:09 PM): yeah at 4
MR. SINGLE (8:26:49 PM): ok. so when will I be able to give you a call?
Me (8:27:16 PM): depends on what this week brings...ben busy with hmwk and stuff lately so idk
MR. SINGLE (8:27:32 PM): ok.
Me (8:27:47 PM): why missin my voice that much??
MR. SINGLE (8:27:55 PM): lol.
MR. SINGLE (8:28:18 PM): naw. Just wanted to talk to you that's all.
Me (8:28:27 PM): i see
MR. SINGLE (8:28:42 PM): and it's the other way around.
MR. SINGLE (8:28:59 PM): you miss my voice.
Me (8:29:06 PM): not really
MR. SINGLE (8:29:16 PM): ha.
Me (8:29:19 PM): i only miss my bestie's voice ^_^
MR. SINGLE (8:29:31 PM): ok
Me (8:30:20 PM): nothing to you tho
MR. SINGLE (8:30:36 PM): ok
MR. SINGLE (8:33:17 PM): You have not been having any fun lately?
Me (8:33:33 PM): no not really
Me (8:33:50 PM): i was happy to get my tv hooked up tho but theres like no fun up her at all
MR. SINGLE (8:34:06 PM): oh.
Me (8:34:47 PM): its hillbillie hell cant expect much here in the country
MR. SINGLE (8:35:04 PM): okay I see.
Me (8:35:26 PM): but even if i wanted to go out and have fun i cant because i dont have transpertation to go
MR. SINGLE (8:35:48 PM): oh yeah I forgot you cannot drive.
Me (8:35:54 PM): yeah
Me (8:36:01 PM): you forget a lot of things i see
MR. SINGLE (8:36:09 PM): naw not alot.
Me (8:36:14 PM): uh huh
MR. SINGLE (8:36:18 PM): nope.
MR. SINGLE (8:36:38 PM): I know how pretty you still look. I remember you cut your hair down to.
Me (8:36:50 PM): uh huh
Me (8:36:59 PM): thats only 2 things
MR. SINGLE (8:37:08 PM): yeah I know.
MR. SINGLE (8:37:47 PM): I know you have a crush on a guy that you ran into in the store one day.
Me (8:38:07 PM): uh huh thats 3
MR. SINGLE (8:38:19 PM): I think you favorite color is blue.
Me (8:38:47 PM): really?? i think you should be able to tell by the font here lol
MR. SINGLE (8:39:02 PM): lol.
MR. SINGLE (8:39:03 PM): yeah.
Me (8:39:04 PM): but yes it is blue
Me (8:39:16 PM): i love it so much my toe nails are blue ^_^
MR. SINGLE (8:39:33 PM): i know you single.
Me (8:39:40 PM): ok 4
Me (8:39:48 PM): but i dont call it single tho
MR. SINGLE (8:39:59 PM): what do you call it?
Me (8:40:15 PM): free sexy and happy
Me (8:40:21 PM): and thats the truth
MR. SINGLE (8:40:32 PM): lol
MR. SINGLE (8:40:32 PM): ok
MR. SINGLE (8:40:45 PM): you dont want a man?
Me (8:40:56 PM): no not really
Me (8:41:03 PM): didn't come here with one
MR. SINGLE (8:41:16 PM): oh boy.
Me (8:41:17 PM): and i'm know i'm pretty sure i can survive w/o one
Me (8:41:23 PM): what??
MR. SINGLE (8:41:29 PM): nothing.
Me (8:41:33 PM): what??
MR. SINGLE (8:41:46 PM): nothing I was just reading what you was typing.
Me (8:42:02 PM): well whats up with the 'oh boy' and all??
MR. SINGLE (8:42:40 PM): I was just saying that when you said you did not come here with one.
Me (8:42:50 PM): thats true isn't it??
MR. SINGLE (8:43:12 PM): yeah true. but I know you dont want to be single forever.
Me (8:43:21 PM): yeah i would rather it be that way
Me (8:43:24 PM): less drama
Me (8:43:39 PM): besides i'm not like my friends who are desperate to be with someone
MR. SINGLE (8:44:01 PM): so let me get this straight.
Me (8:44:04 PM): ok
MR. SINGLE (8:44:13 PM): let's say we meet in person.
MR. SINGLE (8:44:24 PM): and I ask you to be my girl.
MR. SINGLE (8:44:34 PM): you going to turn me down?
Me (8:44:39 PM): probably
MR. SINGLE (8:44:50 PM): ok.
Me (8:45:16 PM): relationships dont work for me
Me (8:45:24 PM): besides i have commitment issues
MR. SINGLE (8:45:42 PM): oh.
Me (8:45:59 PM): you say it like youre surprised
MR. SINGLE (8:46:42 PM): no i'm not surprised. trust me it's going to come a time where you want to be with someone. it may not be now.
Me (8:47:01 PM): and i seriously doubt that
MR. SINGLE (8:47:41 PM): why?
MR. SINGLE (8:48:17 PM): I thought you want to have a least one child and get married one day.
Me (8:48:40 PM): becoz....one after dealin with the losers i've dealt with have worked my nerves and 2 i still seriously doubt that there are any good men out there
Me (8:48:51 PM): yeah but every lil girl wants that
MR. SINGLE (8:49:09 PM): hey i'm a good man.
Me (8:49:11 PM): but even now thingsve change and i dont want[s] (kids) and i definitely dont wanna get married
Me (8:49:18 PM): yeah says you
Me (8:49:26 PM): just like me sayin i'm a good woman right??
MR. SINGLE (8:49:25 PM): I am.
Me (8:49:32 PM): same difference
MR. SINGLE (8:50:03 PM): you just mad cause on how you was treated in your last relationships.
MR. SINGLE (8:50:18 PM): but you cannot give up.
Me (8:50:18 PM): not really
MR. SINGLE (8:50:25 PM): okay.
Me (8:50:29 PM): i actually feel better after that relationship
Me (8:50:42 PM): but its not giving up its about going after whats for the better
MR. SINGLE (8:51:04 PM): okay
Me (8:51:51 PM): i see it as it's better for me to be by myself than have to question if the relationship is in a good place or if that person really cares about me that he wants to stick with me and work it out
MR. SINGLE (8:53:04 PM): well you know all relationships is like that.
Me (8:53:18 PM): yeah i do and i dont have time for that
MR. SINGLE (8:53:25 PM): it all has it's ups and downs.
Me (8:53:44 PM): true thats to be expected but all lot of that can be avoided
Me (8:54:04 PM): if you dont love someone just let them kno instead of stringing the relationship along to the point of nothing
MR. SINGLE (8:54:20 PM): true.
Me (8:54:46 PM): i would rather be told that he doesn't love me than to be find out later on while he's gone off and done other stuff
MR. SINGLE (8:55:23 PM): ok.
MR. SINGLE (8:55:48 PM): even with your friends you going have that same problem.
Me (8:55:58 PM): well friends are a different story
MR. SINGLE (8:56:13 PM): is it really.
Me (8:56:21 PM): see i wanna know a head of time if you're gonna give me the time of day and if not then i just push you to the curb
Me (8:56:24 PM): yes really
Me (8:56:45 PM): see friends are ppl you take time out and go thru different situations
Me (8:57:01 PM): there for you when you need them and vice versa
MR. SINGLE (8:57:27 PM): but that's just the same as you have a good companion.
Me (8:57:32 PM): but relationships you invest time love and money to make it work to have something you hope to hold onto for a long time
Me (8:58:02 PM): no a good companion is a nice way of saying significant other or your shack up partner
MR. SINGLE (8:58:40 PM): okay. I see you really rather be alone.
Me (8:58:49 PM): definitely
Me (8:58:54 PM): less drama and issues
Me (8:59:18 PM): besides i don't have time or patience to baby some grown man nor stroke his ego so he can be happy while feeding me the bs
MR. SINGLE (9:00:25 PM): but all men are not bad. that's what i'm trying to get you to see here.
Me (9:00:49 PM): yes i kno that but thats neither here nor there
Me (9:00:54 PM): the point is where are they
MR. SINGLE (9:01:12 PM): right here I'm one.
Me (9:01:18 PM): hey all the good men are either taken, famous and outta reach or gayly married to each other
Me (9:01:27 PM): and what's your point
MR. SINGLE (9:01:57 PM): i'm single. looking for someone.
Me (9:02:39 PM): one coz you want to settle down and two i'm single but i'm not lookin for someone
MR. SINGLE (9:03:17 PM): okay you really making this harder than what it suppose to be.
Me (9:03:23 PM): no i'm not
Me (9:03:29 PM): you're looking and wanting something that i'm not
Me (9:03:51 PM): if i really wanted to be with someone and be married with children i would've done it by now
MR. SINGLE (9:04:34 PM): okay. you got your point across.
MR. SINGLE (9:05:06 PM): I know you dont want to grow old and be single of ever.
Me (9:05:17 PM): i would rather it be that way
Me (9:05:41 PM): i would love to be in a relationship but i just cannot deal with the unnecessary issues it brings
Me (9:06:09 PM): i shouldnt have to question if he wants to be with me or not.....he either does or doesn't and if he doesn't then we cant be together
MR. SINGLE (9:06:13 PM): that's why you work through them and not against them.
Me (9:06:28 PM): no i couldnt work with something like that
Me (9:07:00 PM): its like going to school if you don't like then you go to a new one....you dont work through it with hopes of it getting better and it doesnt and you know you're not happy
MR. SINGLE (9:07:02 PM): but that what makes a relationship stronger. yall work it out together.
Me (9:07:21 PM): yeah thats how its suppose to go, but it never doesnt
MR. SINGLE (9:07:40 PM): trust me it will.
Me (9:07:49 PM): no it doesnt
MR. SINGLE (9:07:58 PM): yes it does.
MR. SINGLE (9:08:15 PM): nothing in this life is easy.
Me (9:08:18 PM): no it doesnt....coz if it did then everyone would be clones and this would be brave new world
MR. SINGLE (9:08:28 PM): lol
Me (9:08:35 PM): i know that, but when it comes to happiness don't you think it should be??
MR. SINGLE (9:09:31 PM): yeah but that's why you have trial and tribulations
Me (9:10:06 PM): yeah and people also realize after hitting a brick wall for so long its apparent that you're not going to get thru
Me (9:10:08 PM): right??
MR. SINGLE (9:10:24 PM): right.
Me (9:11:03 PM): so why keep running into it??
MR. SINGLE (9:11:15 PM): well i've been single for too long. I would like to give another shot at being in a relationship.
Me (9:11:25 PM): then why don't you??
MR. SINGLE (9:11:29 PM): cause it's in our nature.
MR. SINGLE (9:11:34 PM): i'm trying to.
Me (9:12:01 PM): maybe in your nature but not mine
MR. SINGLE (9:12:14 PM): ok
Me (9:12:15 PM): maybe your not tryin hard enuff
MR. SINGLE (9:12:34 PM): well at least i'm trying.
Me (9:12:48 PM): but if its something you really want then why not try harder for it??
MR. SINGLE (9:14:18 PM): trust me i am.
Me (9:14:22 PM): ok
Me (9:14:27 PM): if you say so
MR. SINGLE (9:16:07 PM): i know so.
Me (9:16:08 PM): well like you tryin to get with someone i'm trying to stay away.....and just like yours its not working out but something things come that way right??
MR. SINGLE (9:16:52 PM): right. but i dont give up on it.
Me (9:17:14 PM): yeah and i'm not givin up on not wanting to be with someone
MR. SINGLE (9:17:38 PM): ok
Me (9:17:53 PM): no matter how hard you try you wont be able to change my mind
MR. SINGLE (9:18:39 PM): that's because i'm talking to you through the computer. but if we meet in person I think I can change your mind.
Me (9:19:02 PM): yeah rite
Me (9:19:11 PM): a guy just told me that and we were talking in person
MR. SINGLE (9:19:35 PM): lol. How do you know. Ok that's him but not me.
MR. SINGLE (9:19:48 PM): we two differnt men.
Me (9:19:58 PM): and i'm saying that talkin in person isn't going to change anything
Me (9:20:05 PM): and i'm fully aware of that
MR. SINGLE (9:20:45 PM): You know what you already there and you just dont relize it.
Me (9:20:58 PM): i'm already where??
MR. SINGLE (9:21:35 PM): to that point where you going to give in.
Me (9:21:41 PM): yeah right
MR. SINGLE (9:21:48 PM): you are.
Me (9:21:53 PM): how so??
MR. SINGLE (9:22:09 PM): your first step. communication.
MR. SINGLE (9:22:22 PM): me and you do that very well.
MR. SINGLE (9:22:30 PM): think about it.
Me (9:22:44 PM): yeah thats coz we've been talking for a good while
MR. SINGLE (9:23:07 PM): yeah and that's how it should be. when you getting to know a person right?
Me (9:23:44 PM): depends
Me (9:23:57 PM): you could always ask them up front what you need to know then go from there
MR. SINGLE (9:24:20 PM): but sometime you will have to put some work into it.
Me (9:24:54 PM): yes and i'm fully and willing to do that but i like for to be a group project and not one-minded or onesided
MR. SINGLE (9:25:18 PM): and I feel you on that.
MR. SINGLE (9:25:40 PM): and that's how it should be.
Me (9:25:45 PM): exactly
MR. SINGLE (9:27:52 PM): see we both agreed on something.
Me (9:28:00 PM): ok
MR. SINGLE (9:29:46 PM): see we understand how a relationship suppose to work.
Me (9:30:29 PM): yes but it takes more than that right??
MR. SINGLE (9:31:25 PM): yeah. and a lil faith. anything possible.
Me (9:31:40 PM): tru but it takes a special kind of person
MR. SINGLE (9:32:03 PM): yeah. it does.
Me (9:32:53 PM): but also takes commitment in everything
Me (9:33:05 PM): not just the relationship as a whole
Me (9:33:19 PM): but the commitment to say i'm going to make this work, no matter what
MR. SINGLE (9:33:50 PM): yeap
Me (9:33:56 PM): i'm sure you've been the situation when you were with someone and something wasn't working between you two and you thought about being with someone else
MR. SINGLE (9:34:31 PM): yes i have.
Me (9:34:52 PM): so you cant say its flawless when its not
MR. SINGLE (9:35:21 PM): all I can say that chapter is done. and it's time to start a new one.
Me (9:35:40 PM): well for you
MR. SINGLE (9:35:49 PM): yeah.
Me (9:36:09 PM): mines is a never ending story and i've decided to stop fighting it and to go with the flow
Me (9:36:27 PM): but i refuse to abandon all of my beliefs just becoz i did with one
MR. SINGLE (9:36:40 PM): ok
MR. SINGLE (9:38:19 PM): well sauni I'm about to go. I got to get ready for work tomorrow. It was nice talking to you tonight. I hope I get to talk to you again soon.
Me (9:38:24 PM): ok
Me (9:38:33 PM): maybe if i'm not so busy
MR. SINGLE (9:39:01 PM): You be safe. and good luck on your project.
Me (9:39:16 PM): i'm always safe and ty
MR. SINGLE (9:39:28 PM): you welcome. goodnight.
Me (9:39:48 PM): nitey nite


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Now I kno a few of you were probably like.....wow she's mean as hell O_O. Technically if you know me, no I'm not. I just can't deal with stupidness. And I will not deal with it. He works my nerves and he's a PAIN in the ASS!! He makes me wanna bust the windows out his JEEP -_-. Now....if you didn't get pissed after reading that, then i don't know WTF is wrong with you! But now imagine for 4 nights STRAIGHT ina ROW....this is what we talked about. NOW do I wanna WASTE the minutes ON MY FONE to have a stupid argument about how I need to settle down. Uh! I am damn near 22 years old.......when i wanted to settle down NO ONE was interested so THEREFORE.....i push that thought out of MY MIND. But now when men wanna come along....all they want is for me to be the lil housewife slash whore. And I REFUSE i'm sorry. I will NOT cater to a man, he gotta show me that he's worth something that he's material before I do that, ya digg??? But yeah yall, but now you can say well at least she's a Nice Bitch ^_^ lol